I’ve been a Computer Science student for over a month now…

…and I love it. The classmates are wonderful, the classes are fun and inspiring and the teachers are engaged and awesome. Or something…

I am not gonna say that it’s been easy. It’s a real roller coaster. One lecture could be really great and I understand basically everything. Then another one could be so hard that my brain stops working and I sit there wondering wtf just happened. Luckily, both the teachers and classmates are there to help and that’s great. I’m basically friends with all of them, and that’s totally awesome!

The first weeks were pretty easy with basically no homework or very little to do. Even though it’s was a bit of a slow start I was so tired that I didn’t what to do with myself. Also I have no idea on how I’m supposed to study. I still really don’t know this. I know the basics of course. Go to all the possible classes, do all the homework and/or assignments, read the books and pass the tests. However the only thing that I’m unsure of is how to read the books. Also after going to a bunch of classes it seems a bit redundant to read the books, because the teacher explains everything in detail anyway. And I rarely learn anything from reading books…

I’m so not into reading books. Not even factual based books. When I studied last time at college, I read maybe 5-10% of the books but I made it anyway. That’s because we did not have a classic examination. All we did was write essays and reports. I would not have made it otherwise…

So far, we’ve been learning about algorithms, pseudo code, flow charts and basic programming. In the programming course, we’ve gone through, variables, classes, methods, parameters, arguments, loops, bot while and for loops and many other things I forgot to mention. We’re focusing on Java, if I didn’t mention it before and we’re using IntelliJ for development. Learning programming for real has been a lot of fun, but frustrating and I’ve come to the conclusion that the easiest solution is most often the right and best one. Personally, with my mental blockages constantly being in the way and my aching body hating to commute, it feels like this whole thing is gonna figure itself out by itself. Once I start to remember what everything is and how it’s and should be used, it is gonna become a lot easier. I learn a lot from my classmates, by going to class and I think I’ve learned the most from making mistakes.

The funny thing is that this is probably the first time in my adult life that I realize how different I truly am in regards to other people. I’m different in both good and bad ways. The bad way is kinda obvious. It’s the fibromyalgia that is making everything tougher then it is for most people. Personality wise I’m thrilled that I’m myself and that it’s ok to be who I am, a nerdy “girl” who likes to be around boys or something. Not to be around boys in the traditional sense, more like being around the guys in a friendly way. Who cares? I love the fact that I’m not surrounded by annoying women talking crap about men. The other three ladies in class seems to be as interested in programming as I am, and that’s also great! One of them seems to be a mastermind in math as well. I’d probably talk to her a lot when I have problems with that.

My fibromyalgia is making school hard in the ways that my body is aching constantly. My back and shoulders are more tense than ever. My neck hurts from watching the teacher, no matter where I sit in the classroom. In this school it seems that we’re not using classic college classrooms, like old movie theaters or something, but regular classrooms like in high schools. That hurts my neck a lot. I’m tired all day, especially before and after class on the train ride to or from school, and I’ve been like a zombie at home, trying to do my best to study anyways. During the weekends I’ve actually done a lot, but it seems like all the notes and reading I’ve done won’t help me until I can discuss all of it with classmates and the teachers. I’ve actually done most of my studying during the weekends, because I got nothing better to with my time.

One huge aspect of fibromyalgia is so called “Brain fog”. I haven’t really experienced that for a very long time now before college started. It been months, but now when I’m learning a lot of new stuff, it’s so hard trying to find the words that I feel like an idiot most of the time during class. I bet my classmates notice it too, but I’m honest and say that it’s brain fog, or due to my stupid illnesses that make my life hell 99% of the time. I do sense that it has been easier since I started school, but even then it’s a rollercoaster. I just hope that I can get through this and pass the tests. I’m really nervous about the tests 😬

Just so you know, I’m so sorry that I haven’t blogged until now. I actually started this post just a few days after college started, but it wasn’t until now that I actually had time to post it. I have so much more to tell you, but as long as I am this tired, everything besides eating, studying and sleeping is considered a huge bonus of mine, and blogging right now has to be at the lower end of my list of things to do. I hope you’ve missed me, and that you keep continue to visit this blog even when I’m not blogging. The blog is otherwise completely dead with basically no visitors and nobody seems to use Google either to search for the stuff I’ve written about and that’s been going on for like a year. I find that so weird, but I don’t have time to figure out why that is.

Either way, I’m happy as a college student and I’m looking forward to getting a degree in Computer Science!

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My mind is blown yet again…

The other day I wrote about me getting into college again and the changes that I hope will come with all of that. I also wrote that I could not afford getting a MacBook for school and that Windows is no longer that great. Well… It seems my worries are over.

The other day, an hour or so before my boyfriend was about to come home, he wrote to me saying he’ll most likely be late. That was fine with me, since the trains usually have troubles with just about everything these days. To my surprise, he actually came home a lot sooner than I thought. I sat by my computer, playing around with lots of stuff and before he came in through the door he told me to close my eyes and keep them close. I was so excited and I hoped it was a MacBook that was the surprise. I was right. My mind is blown away yet again. Talk about having an awesome boyfriend!

The thing is, that he ordered the MacBook when I got accepted into college. It’s the 2018 MacBook Pro 13″. It does come with some strings attached. It will be mainly my computer, but he will also have an account. We also installed windows 10 on it, because why not? Also, I’ll probably not receive any gifts for a really long time and that’s fine with me. This year has been full of surprises and I’m expecting to get a better financial situation the upcoming years than I’d originally plan so that means I can probably save more and spend more if I want to. I guess the only greedy question in my Apple journey so far is if I’ll buy an iPad with an Apple pencil or if I can manage without it. I’d like to go paperless for school for many reasons, but our iPad mini 2 works fine as is, even though I’d really like to have at least touch-ID for it. I guess we’ll see what happens when school starts. I probably won’t be needing a new iPad until I have a math class, which is not until march 2019 or something.

Also, I must add that I’m a huge fan of the trackpad. It took a few hours to get used to, but now it’s like I want it on my desktop as well. My mouse for my desktop is a logitech mouse with a trackball. It’s called the Trackman Marble and I love using it. Now, however since using the trackpad, I don’t really what to feel. It has so many advantages, but so does the original Trackman. It’s overall the absolute best touchpad I’ve used! The typing experience is also really nice. I thought I’d get pain in my fingers from writing on it, but no. Everything is fine. I do miss a numerical, though but I guess you can’t have it all. Not even the 15″ has a numerical…

Well, it seems my Apple collection is just growing bigger all the time and I love it. I’m curious to see what product will be next and how well the computer will work for school.

Do you have a MacBook Pro 13″? Let me know how much you like it by leaving a comment below. Thanks!

 

 

It’s time for some new beginnings…

And it starts with me going back to college! Yep. I got in, but I guess that most of you didn’t even know that I was planning on going back to school either, but it’s true. It’s only been like 5 years or so since I came out of college. I should’ve finished college in 2012, but it took me an additional two years to finish my last essay. That was not my fault, but at last I managed to finish it.

That college education made me a social scientist, specializing in people with disabilities and the job market. I however did not get a job in that field, per say… It’s kind of funny. My first real job actually involved working with a project specializing in just what I’ve gone to college for, but it did not make me work with people in the sense I had planned for myself. And that’s fine! My own disabilities are at “fault” for that. I basically thought of myself as a typical worker at a job agency, but the first job I got was a whole other thing. These days I’m however very grateful for my experience.

It’s just sad that I did not realize I wouldn’t have a permanent future as a social scientist. Technically I could get a job working for the authorities, but I’ve applied countless times and never gotten a response so I have stopped trying. Also, with my current health situation I will never be able to work more than 50% and I can only perform relatively simple tasks, so why bother?

The solution probably lies within the IT business. With who I am as a person and what I’ve always loved doing, I should most likely be a developer if some sorts. I love problem solving and with my years as a blogger, using mainly WordPress as my platform I have developed a huge curiosity for code and development. Unfortunately, due to my Fibromyalgia and restless personality I haven’t been able really to do something about this venture that I’m finally gonna start.

I got accepted into college and if I finish I’ll become a system developer, specializing in Java development. I’ll also get a bachelors degree in computer science.

With this new and awaited start in my life, it is also the perfect time for some other changes. For starters, I am planning to kick start my diet into a WFPB diet that is as vegan, fiber rich and nutritious as possible. With my current health status – I probably have no other choice than eating healthier because I have no idea how I’ll get the strength to study if I do not take care of my health as well.

When school starts I’d be hoping I’d use a MacBook for my studies, but I can’t afford one. Until I can or some other miracle happens I’ll have to make due with our old laptop pc instead. As of writing this, I started writing this post on the laptop but it was so slow and laggy that my domestic partner had to reinstall windows on it and it still keeps bugging out on us. Something is deeply wrong with that laptop and we don’t know why. It is a similar problem that occurred with my desktop pc, but my BF has never had this issue with either the laptop or his own desktop so that makes it all a bit more weird. He finally managed to reinstall Windows on it, but I do not like Windows any longer.

After I’ve used a Mac mini since like April or May of 2018, going back to windows just feels so wrong. I miss the seamless experience that occurs between apple products but hopefully everything will be fine when school starts in a few weeks. Windows is cluttered, messy and it is clearly spying software or something.

I got office 365 with being a student again and I’ve installed it on the Mac mini. On windows, I got a suspicious question if I wanted to let my school change stuff in my computer?! Fortunately I could say hell no to that, but still? WTF?! That’s not cool on a personal computer. Fine if it was owned by the school but we bought it 3 or 4 years ago. This occured before the reinstall of Windows. I’m not sure how much I’ll be needing office 365, so I’ll wait and see until I’ll install it again on the laptop.

Also, on our laptop, it’s been a huge hassle with typing, getting languages to work properly and I miss Safari as my web browser. I’ve installed Firefox on the laptop now, but I miss Safari anyways. It’s not a perfect browser, but this laptop fucking sucks! Or maybe it’s just Windows that i dislike?! I’m writing on it again and I keep touching the touch bar, which makes the cursor move and it gets my words all messed up. I am gonna hate this! Not that I’ve tried using a Macbook ever, but it might be a whole lot better in many ways. With MacOS I at least know where to find everything…

I’m also doing my best to try a new thing, and that new thing has to do with iOS. I’ve been having trouble with Google Photos not uploading photos in the background. According to several sources it is due to iOS being “locked in” and not allowing this, but according to others, it’s been considered a bug. I don’t know what to say, because sometimes it does uploads everything without me having to have the app open in the background and sometimes it does not upload a single thing for weeks – until I manually open the app. I don’t know what to think, but after some googling I’ve decided to do some other thing that many recommends. That thing is to leave apps open in the background and not close them after use.

It’s a bit difficult of a habit to learn, since I’ve done this like always on Android and ever since I got my iPhone SE, but I’m trying my hardest now. If I can change this behavior and let apps be left open in the background, it would make many things a lot easier for me. However, after a little bit of testing it did not help at all with Google Photos. However, the photos I took were uploaded to iCloud and to my Mac mini seconds after I’ve taken them, so the problem remains. For now it makes me want to use Google photos even less, because I’m sick and tired of stuff not working properly! It can be a “good” backup, but nothing else, at least when we’re talking iOS vs Google.

After being an iPhone user with a physical home button for mainly all interactions, I’ve still not gotten used to using a home button. It feels weird, but I LOVE, Touch ID. With this new behavior I’m actually using the home button less, so that’s good. So, what’s the reason to letting apps be left open in the background? Well, that’s because iOS closes apps anyways after like 10 minutes and it uses less RAM if they’re left in the background. They say that if you take a picture with Google Photos in the background, it will wake up the app, but apparently not, but I’ll do some more testing…

I’ve also activated Apple Photos to store my photos and videos in iCloud. I still have like 4 GB left until I have to start paying for the service and I’ve noticed that more than 90% of my photos and videos stored in Google Photos are test videos or random, useless photos anyways so if I were to switch fully to Apple Photos instead, I’d be more careful with photos and videos I’d take. The reason I’m thinking of switching to Apple Photos is because it seems to be a more reliable service with faster uploads between devices, even if I do not use the storage option. Even if I’d start using Apple photos I can still continue to use Google photos anyway because it would be a good backup.

I actually tried to download my whole photo library I have on Google Photos, and I have 50 GB of stuff since like 2011 or something. Some of those photos were taken long before that, but I’m counting since I started using Picasa and then Google photos. If I’d go over to Apple Photos I’d probably take more “quality” photos than just random crap just because I can.

Ok, to sum it up – I have definitively noticed that I love being an Apple user and the Eco system is worth it all, even though it’s expensive as shit. I am starting to change as a person as well, because I am so sick of things never changing for the better. With me being an upcoming student again, I am hoping to change a whole lot more than just prefer being an Apple user. If I succeed, I’ll be a highly paid system/software developer, a WFPB vegan who’s lost 20+ lbs and regained her health and hopefully with a better hold on life than I have right now. I hope to change my behavior as well and learn to read books, not to get angry all the time because I don’t know the solution to things and most of all – I hope this all ends with me having a Great Dane by my side. As well as plenty more Apple products to boot 😂

What are your hopes for your future? Let me know in a comment below. Thanks!

Guess what?! It did end with an iPhone!!!

Yes, what you’ve read in the title is true. I am now an iPhone user and it happened in a way I never thought was possible. My boyfriend bought me one! He’s said that I won’t be getting another phone from him, but since I managed to pass my math class, I got one as a gift last Thursday and I couldn’t be happier. Well, I could, but like I wrote in my last post about payment plans, you know where I stand. I got an iPhone SE, and because that’s an iPhone – I am thrilled! I love it, and I’ve gotten used to the tiny size of it.

How it happened…

Last Thursday, the day after I found out that I passed math, I spent the afternoon with a friend of mine who was gonna babysit our cat over the weekend. We went to the mall that’s nearby, bought a smoothie and I spent most likely a half an hour nagging about how iOS would be so much better than Android for so many reasons and why I wanna switch over to it. My BF was on his way home and I had a secret plan of going into the Apple store and play around with all the stuff in there, but I still felt a bit ashamed of my Apple obsession, but in the end I never went in to the store. A few minutes later me and my friend met up with my BF. He said he could be a bit late and when we met him he said that he’d been to a store to look for a thing. My first thought was – “Did he just buy me an iPhone?! Nah…” I still hoped it was true, but I figured that it was probably something else he bought. If I was wrong, I did not want to feel disappointed. My memory sucks these days so I could very easily have been wrong. When we got home a bit later, the first thing that happened after we went into the kitchen was that he handed me the box that contained an iPhone SE. I was so happy I cried and jumped around like crazy!!!

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The Space Gray iPhone SE is now mine! I was so happy that he got me the right colour as well! I do not like the white front on iPhones that much…

The photo above is from when I got it out of the box. You cannot believe the happiness I felt!!! It was so tiny and it weighed nothing compared to my Lenovo P2, but I spent the whole evening, basically setting the phone up. It went great, apart from me not getting the chat history from WhatsApp in it. Apparently it can’t be done without some no-name software that I do not want to download, so I guess I just have to start from scratch with my conversations with the BF on that platform, but that’s fine.

So far the phone works great, but I’ve had some hiccups with it. Most of the disturbances lies within the battery life. That sucks! But it’s probably because I’m used to not having to worry about it. Also I sort of can’t stop using it which drains the battery faster as well. The stand-by time is however great. If I don’t use it, basically no battery is used (unless I listen to podcasts for some reason?!), but if I start to do anything it drops really fast. I’ve had to charge it twice, pretty much daily except for Saturday, because then we were at a wedding all day and I didn’t wanna be rude and stare at my phone all day then. The other hiccups I’ve noticed is that it’s sometimes hard to press buttons to go back, but I’ve guess I figured out that I’m pressing wrong. I’m used to pressing exactly on the “X” or whatever button there is, but apparently you’re supposed to press a little bit on the right or the left of it if you want to go back or exit from where you are. Also I’ve notices that some apps tend, not to crash, but I have to press some apps multiple times in order to get in to the app. This mostly happens with communication apps, like FB messenger and WhatsApp if I open them from the lock screen or right after unlocking the phone. It’s a bit strange, but it hasn’t happened for a few days so that could’ve been temporary.

I’ve also gotten used to the size of it now. I tried using my BF’s phone the other day because I wanted to look for something on Android, and his phone felt huge. A few minutes later I used the iPad and that felt enormous! The iPad still feels enormous! Having a tiny phone has its advantages, though, but if I could I’d really go back to having a bigger one. Maybe not iPhone 8 plus size, but at least a bit bigger then the SE. If not for the bigger screen, then at least for the battery life. I am however sick and tired of constantly getting new phones, so I’m hoping and planning that the SE will last me at least two years or so and then I hope I’m able to buy a bigger iPhone – if I’m still that pleased with the experience. By then Apple would most likely have released several improved versions of the iPhone X and hopefully the price will be better in the future for all iPhones. And it actually fits in my pocket!

So far, over all I’m in love with it. The seamlessness between the iPad and other Macs is amazing! We were traveling over the weekend and with a click I could share the wi-fi with the iPad from my iPhone. Absolutely amazing! Among a bazillion other cool stuff I’ve noticed. Apps in general look gorgeous on the iPhone!

The typing experience has also been pretty much amazing. iOS in itself does a better job with typing then Google’s Gboard. The only thing that feels weird while typing is that it’s a whole lot different from the iPad. The iPad has so called “key flicks” or something like that, which makes typing letters, numbers and other special characters a whole lot faster. The iPhone does not have that and even the “.” character is nowhere to be found, normally when chatting with a friend. I guess that’s also something to get used to and I have and overall it’s working beautifully to type on such a tiny screen!

Last Friday, after arriving in Stockholm I went right into a store and bought a case for it. Of course I could find a super pink one in silicone for cheap, and so I bought it. I’ve also today ordered a custom printed case with one of the biggest cuddle bugs ever on it, Gandalf – the Great Dane with a glass screen protector. I’m looking forward to having that case. The pink silicone one works ok. It does not sit that tight as I want it to, but it looks gorgeous and feels great in the hand. I personally prefer silicone cases to my phones, and I hope that the custom case I’ve ordered is in better quality then the pink one. I’ll of course save the pink case and switch between them whenever I feel like it and it feels great to have a phone that’s easy to accessorise.

I’ve switched around as well with the app placements and now I believe I’m sort of finished with that. All my apps are in different folders on the first home screen and categorised and that’s great! I could sure use some widgets, but I guess you can’t have everything…

It basically all feels like a dream, and now I finally feel like I can relax a bit. My obsession with Apple will not cease to exist anytime soon, but what I mean is that it’s now “fine” or whatever to talk Apple products, watch Youtube videos and listen to podcasts etc about Apple without feeling that much shame. It has helped my mind to focus on this anyways and it’s been a silent motivator to help passing with math class and looking forward to the future. Also my mom got an older Macbook Pro as a birthday gift the other week and we helped her out with setting everything up and that felt great. I was able to freely talk about Apple products and even my parents several times mentioned why they are so happy with Apple. The reason for it is because it is simple, reliable and works seamlessly between devices. Before, my mom had a really bad Windows laptop and she’s gone nuts with using that computer. It’s basically due to the laptop not having enough RAM or an SSD, but even with macOS, everything will be a lot easier for her and the family. And that’s something I’m looking forward to as well, because if I can decide as of now, I’ll officially never go back to using Android and Windows full-time ever again. Of course I’ll keep my old desktop PC, because who knows how long the Mac mini will hold, but I’m hoping it will last until I myself have the money to buy an iMac or something in about 3-4 years depending on what will happen the upcoming years for me.

I am now “fully emerged” into the Apple ecosystem except for the Apple Watch, AirPods and an Apple TV, but who’s counting?! However, I don’t think it would be that hard to leave it as of now. As long as I keep being an iPhone user, everything should be fine. The only thing I’d miss as of now is iMessage and the seamless experience that’s come with that since getting an iPhone. It’s absolutely amazing to answer phone calls and SMS on my computer, just because I have an iPhone! On the other hand, I still use Google drive for documents and I can reach those wherever I am anyways and iTunes is available for Windows as well. Also the seamless experience I’ve noticed using photos is also pretty great. It makes me somewhat interested to stop using Google photos and start using iCloud instead, but if I do that I’d have to pay for it. However, in the future when I might afford it and I know I’m staying with Apple I might switch, but for now I’m pleased with having Google Photos, since it’s a free service and works fairly well. The only downside to it is that it takes ages for it to sync across all my devices. iCloud photos syncs seamlessly without me barely noticing. Also,  the iCloud photo sharing and photo stream thing works anyways, without me officially storing all the photos in iCloud so that’s a great workaround as of now as well.

Well, I’m happy as hell. How about you? What were your thoughts if you’ve ever switched from Android to iOS? Leave a comment below and let me know!

I’ve temporarily switched to a Mac computer…😮

 

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And I feel so stupid for not doing that sooner! You know how much I’ve been talking about Apple on this blog. It’s been going on for ages, or at least for more than 6 months. I thought I’d get tired of the idea regarding Apple and iOS, but no. It stopped for a while, but with my Lenovo P2 being the buggy android that it is and with Google I/O 2018 and the sky rocketing privacy issues that emerged this spring, the thoughts and feelings about switching to something “better” has been there lurking pretty much daily for way to long now. And believe it or not, but the solution was actually right under my nose the whole time. Now I shall explain why.

I’ve mentioned before that we’ve had an Mac mini and an iPad in our household for several years. The Mini has been used as a media player of sorts and that worked great! Now we use Android TV that crashes all the time. Ain’t that fun?! Ok, the Mini as a media player also crashed sometimes, but that happened very rarely. The Android Shield TV crashes multiple times per week.

The iPad was my iOS exploration tool during the fall of 2017, but I’ve since then de-activated it and re-activated it. All during the time while I’ve been curious about iOS, having an iPhone instead of an Android and using MacOS instead of Windows etc. During that time I had absolutely no clue that I actually could use our Mini to still my curiosity. However, I did attempt to use it a while back, but since I could not create an account for myself then or update to High Sierra, I put it back and didn’t think of using it again until now. This time I succeeded!

Luckily, or whatever one might say, I actually thought of the idea for about a week ago and this is due to two main reasons. One being that my closest friend was in need of a PC, since her has stopped working and the other was that my PC also has been acting weird from time to time for the past year or so. At first my plan was to loan my friend the Mac mini, but then I realised I could actually explore macOS without spending one penny! And she probably wouldn’t want it, since she needs a computer for gaming. I don’t think the Mini is great for heavy gaming… I thought the problem with my computer was fixed, but it wasn’t and so I got sick and tired of the whole shebang and then… Then I thought that I actually could use the Mini, since we’re not using it for anything at the moment. That’s like wholly crap amazingness or something in my book these days, since I can’t stop thinking about Apple products no matter how hard I try. It’s like my mind is forced to think about them, and I’ve totally succumbed to the idea of stable technology products. And that’s because I’m so sick of purchased products of technology not working the way they should. Non-responsive, buggy and laggy android phones, Googles AI crap etc… The list is getting longer as we speak!

Some time during last week when the BF was at work I started my devious plan. I switched all the necessary cables to the mini, booted it up, created an account for myself, upgraded it to High Sierra, downloaded iMovie and other useful programs and off I went. A week later, after I’ve learned the basic stuff I am so in love with this! Sure, I’ve had some hiccups, but not like I’ve had with my Windows computer so many times. Regarding iMovie, I really like that as well. The main reason is because it renders super quickly, even with added effects and music. I use Sony Vegas for editing on my PC, and even though I really like SV for editing videos, it has always, no  matter what setting, rendered really slowly. To explain, let’s say that it at least takes 3-4 times longer to render with SV in comparison to iMovie. Both software programs can do basically the same thing, and basically everything that I personally need for my videos. iMovie renders a one minute video with added effects in like a minute. Sony Vegas does this in at least 3 minutes, perhaps even longer sometimes. The quality is also about the same in both programs. And this whilst my PC is a lot more “robust” and “faster” or whatever in comparison with the Mac Mini. It’s the 2012 model, btw. My PC is from 2011 or so, and I’ve god an SSD in both. The Mini has 16 GB of RAM. I don’t know how much RAM my PC has, but it should be a lot more than the Mini. Either way, the Mini runs faster, is quieter and does so far everything I want it to and need it to, so why haven’t I done this sooner? Not to mention it is so tiny!

Well, the reason for that is that I’m stupid and slow sometimes. My brain has a hard time thinking and noticing stuff sometimes. I am also very good at shutting stuff out when I want to, but I have a really hard time as well to focus on what I want when I need to. When I am focused on something that motivates me, however, then it’s nearly impossible to break that focus as well. That’s why my brain likes to focus on Apple products, when I really like need to read a book or study etc. I don’t know why, but it’s a daily struggle. Also, before you start accusing me of having a disorder or something, I do have on paper at least a diagnosis on Asperger’s Syndrome, a kind of autism that I hate to talk about. However, I’ve also during these past few months since this whole Apple craze began, started to analyse a lot more on why I am struggling with this.

So far I’ve come to only one conclusion.

I like to do stuff I enjoy. It’s really that simple. I like to learn new things. I need stability in my life, and for the past year or so I haven’t had that in some aspects. I got terminated (not fired!) from my job, which I’ve suspected and waited for, for over a year, the Blackberry was a disappointment and the only positive thing about my phone is the battery life. Not to mention that I’ve moved two times in less than a year and I haven’t lost weight by going vegetarian. It’s been a bit hard, and in search for stability and somewhat “happiness” outside the fantastic life with my BF, my brain landed with Apple.

Also I do not like to play games, except a few match-3 games on my phone, any longer. It’s not just that fun. It’s hard on my fingers, due to fibromyalgia, and I have a hard time remembering all the buttons for all the different games I used to play. Also I dislike reading books and have always preferred watching movies or TV series instead. I can never really see myself be that kind of person that enjoys reading more than watching, but I’d seriously love it if I could become a book loving person. If I read something, I like reading articles, comments etc, because I love to hear other people’s perspective on things. That’s really inspiring! It’s a lot more inspiring than reading a book at least. I’ve basically never found reading to be that great. It always annoys me that I can’t see the movie, or that the movie based on the book did not make it like the book. Also to add a disclaimer here, I’ve basically only read 2,5 book series in my life. Narnia, Harry Potter and 3,5 books or so of Wheel of Time. The only “magic” time I’ve ever had reading a book was when I read the Magicians Nephew on audiobook, but still I wanted to watch the movie! It still hasn’t been made… 😦

Ok, so I guess it’s time for a conclusion. If I should be really honest, I’d like to stick with the Mac mini for a foreseeable future. Maybe even forever. I’m sort of hooked! I love it, because it does what I want it to, quietly, and as fast (or faster) than my PC. The only thing I miss are better speakers. I have a speaker system from like 2006 or something. I’ve sort of gotten them as a gift from my BF, since he doesn’t need them. I love them and do not see a reason to buy a new pair of speakers, but the only problem is that they do not work with the Mac mini or my screen. It was an easy fix, however. I just needed a better AUX cable which I had lying around the apartment. I also have a subwoofer that goes with my speakers, and that’s why I love it so much. I love that bass!

When I use a PC, I mainly use it for browsing the web, chatting with people and sometime (very rarely these days) to render and edit videos. For work I used the web a lot, except for when I’ve had to use Microsoft Office or other products like it, or subtitle editing software from when I used to manage that. A lot of what I used for work happened online so… With the Mac mini working so far perfectly I guess it will suite my needs very well and I see no reason what so ever to go back to my Windows PC. On the other hand it makes me want an iMac even more, and also an iPhone. And if by a miracle, I hope I’m like “forced” to buy an Macbook for school if I  manage to get in that is. It seems very unlikely that I will this fall, because I got a really low S.A.T (högskoleprov) score and it will probably be a miracle if I pass my current math (algebra etc) class I’m taking in order to get in.

I’ve played around a bit more with the iPad since I booted up the mini, and even though it hasn’t been a perfect ride getting new ringtones on the iPad, it’s something new I’ve learned. When I got the hang of it and figured out how to do it, it actually works fine. I created the funniest ringtone in GarageBand that I hope I’ll get to use soon when I FaceTime with friends and/or family. That’d be fun! If I get an iPhone soon (hopefully, there’s still the money issue) I’m really looking forward being “drenched” into the Apple ecosystem. With the tiny view I’ve gotten so far with the whole ecosystem thing, I really get why people are hooked on Apple products, even though they’re more expensive than Windows or Android products.

Of course, I also have to write a disclaimer of some sorts. The reason for this is because I know how my mind works and I can easily be swayed in another direction if I just know “enough” to do so. That does not mean I’m just a sheep that follows new people around all the time, I do question stuff – a lot, but I’m also open into trying new things, especially when I have a reason to do so. To sum it up, it basically means that my current hookup with Apple could be just temporary. Just because the Mini works pretty much perfectly as of now, doesn’t mean it will in another year or so, If I still use it by then that is. However, with what I’ve learned about Apple is that their stuff works. For years. If not, just go to an Apple store and they’ll fix it. Unfortunately the Mini won’t be able to be replaced if something would happen to it, but in my very personal mind, I’d probably do my very best to save up my money and replace the Mini and my PC with an iMac within the coming years instead. Why? Because I could use Windows AND macOS on an iMac. I don’t need my clunky desktop PC, really because I’ve stopped playing games. If I decide to buy an iMac in the future (when I can afford it, that is), that computer will most likely be powerful enough anyways for what I have to do. I don’t really see myself as a game developer in the future, and if I’d become one, I’d most likely develop games that are easier on the hard drive etc. Then I wouldn’t need a “fast” Windows PC, and an “underpowered & expensive” iMac would do just fine. And then I could use Windows for my usual stuff whenever I feel like it without having two separate desktop computers.

I’m also using the tiny magic keyboard as well to write this and I love the fact that it’s powered with bluetooth. My desk is normally really cluttered with cables and cords, and now I can really see myself using a wireless mouse and keyboard, with an iMac in the future and loving it. I like space and in some ways, minimalism is also really inspiring and intriguing for me these days. I am not a minimalist per say, but a lot of the philosophy behind it is something me and the BF practise daily without thinking about it. A clean, non-cluttered home and desk is really something I’d like to have. Even though I’ve really enjoyed having two screens, I find that using macOS does not require two screens in the same way I prefer it when I’m using Windows. I don’t really know why, though. I just don’t feel like two screens are that necessary as of now, but if I could have two screens now, I’d be a lot happier. But this works just fine and I love it!

All and all, I love this. And it has made me so much happier as well. Who could’ve thought?

Great… The YouTube shooter is a female vegan. Now what?

This thing is going viral as of now, and for like the first time ever I’m actually writing (or blogging) about news, instead of being years or months behind a big news event. This post is primarily about the YouTube shooting that happened yesterday in California, but maybe also about the recent news regarding Facebook’s scandal that also happened.

The shooter is a woman called Nasim Aghdam who recently gotten fed up with the new YouTube’s new policies and problems with demonetizing videos. I have never seen her videos before, as far as I can remember, but it’s a sad story in many ways.

On her channels, she made videos about veganism, animal rights etc. That is great, but in this case, it sucks that she was vegan. That’s because people tend to categorize people in a bad way when something like this happens. It’s like if a killer turns out to have autism, and then society goes nuts and gets scared of everybody on the autism spectrum, even though practically all of them are as “normal” as you are. It all goes away eventually, but it’s sad and even more horrible when people and society in general see an action like this as a “vegan and crazy” attack on YouTube instead of ONE individual’s opinions and actions. I, myself do my very best not to put people in groups like that, and I believe that I see individuals more than groups of people or culture. If a person does something, towards me or others that’s generally considered a bad thing, like rape, murder, burning somebody’s house down etc, I do not get pissed at “terrorists”, vegans or whomever the group is considered to be. I look at the individual’s action and nowhere else. However, I always speculate in the cause of the actions that took place.

It is not fair for anybody on YouTube to have their videos de-monetized. It is not right for anybody to get raped, robbed or killed etc. But I do not blame YouTubers or vegans for this action. Nasim did this (as far as we know) and it is her action alone and reasoning that did this. Could it have been prevented? Sure. YouTube has been acting weird lately for many YouTubers out there and that’s just not cool. Just like Facebook with their latest data-scraping scandal or whatever I should call it.

However I firmly believe that murder is never the answer.

Society will change no matter what, even though it might take a while longer sometimes with the more important and better things. Like a universal basic income (or  maybe even a world without money?) or a world filled with vegans, where every living creature will live a healthier life with less worry over other things. That would be lovely. It’s sad that she had to die and shoot others in order to spread her opinions…

Ok, shall we talk about Facebook, then?

First of all I am not surprised. I’ve basically known from the beginning that Facebook has serious issues with privacy for their users. Still, I choose to continue using it. The main reason for that is that life as I know it would be really frickin’ boring without it. Here’s the history:

I, personally have also chosen to live my adult life very far away from my roots. I was born in Stockholm, Sweden. My parents are from a place called Härjedalen, which is even further north in this cold country. I now live in Malmö, but I’ve chosen to live in the southern parts of Sweden since 2001. Especially in Skåne, which is the most southern part. I have a huge network of family and friends that has spread throughout the country because of this and no matter what, I’d never move back to Stockholm. Not even if I got a million dollars. I’d never do it willingly. I moved away from there because of mainly two things. The attitude of the people living there and the weather. Many people in Stockholm have a view of life that really differs from mine. It’s like they really do not accept anybody who does not have an iPhone or is generally a bit different from themselves. But I’m also exaggerating a bit here. I love my family and friends I have over there, but generally I feel like the attitude thing is real. I do not like that.

There is also a hidden reason for why I left, and that’s the accent that is spoken there. I do not like it, and I used to speak like that as well, but as I kept growing up I kept feeling that I feel more like a person with a different accent than the one in Stockholm. I choose therefore to talk with a southern Swedish accent instead of the one I was born with. I speak skånska. For people that speak English, I sound like a french person or something like that, because there are a lot of similarities with that language, and the accent itself is very inspired of the french. It is also very related to the Danish language, but not as much as one would think. If you understand Swedish, you can read more about it here.

Ok, going back to Facebook then. I actually deleted my FB account in 2011, when Google+ arrived. I basically instantly felt a loss with all the friends and family that did not choose to use G+ instead of Facebook, which was basically everybody on my friends list. I eventually went back and I have been using FB daily since then. As of now, and this has been true for like 3 years now, Facebook is actually a lot more fun that G+. Google Plus is dying and it is only a matter of time before Google will let that place go. It has a lot of users, sure, but the interaction is basically non existent for many users now. It is so boring and I have sort of given up on the place. I’ve chosen to only post blog posts there and nothing else, because no matter what I post, people do not care. I could basically stop using G+ and nobody would miss me  or notice I’m gone, and that’s fine. But I’ll keep using it until Google calls it quits and that’s that.

Social media is a must for me. It’s so much fun, even though it generates very little traffic to my blogs and YouTube channels. I have also basically stopped using Instagram as well. I post a picture there from time to time, but I’ve stopped going in there to look at my feed. That’s because during the fall of 2017, everything sort of became a bit too much and I decided that at least one of the social media accounts had to be “let go” or something like that. Instagram was the one, but I basically treat G+ the same as well. It’s enough to visit G+ like once every other day, because it takes that long to let the feed become useful enough to read. I’ve basically also stopped giving plus’s to people’s posts. I do not get the interaction back anyways, so why bother? I know that I’m boring on G+, so I have it coming, but many people say the same as me. Therefore a lot of people on G+ have started adding each other on Facebook instead. It’s pretty funny. I also use Facebook a lot at work. Their groups are great, and I personally manage 4 FB pages for my blogs and websites. I also used to manage many of the work’s FB pages as well, but I do not do that any longer.

Ok, so I won’t stop using Facebook and I will not get angry at fellow YouTubers for being disappointed at YouTube for demonetizing their videos, but I will not accept murder and reckless shootings.

What about you?

Make up your mind, would ya?

Nope. Not gonna happen. I’ll continue being stupid because that’s how I roll, baby! If you have no clue what I’m talking about, I’m referring to the always-moving-all-the-blogs-all-ze-fricking-time or something like that. But it’s not like you care, because people still are not reading this blog, so I’m writing this because I feel like it.

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The blog has a new url. Again. I am personally thrilled about this, and since I got such a low readership and followers as of now, I do not see a problem with making this move. Hey, at least I’ve decided to stay with wp.com and sort of never have to deal with web hosts again, but I know and recognize that this happened a bit to fast. If I’d been smart, which I basically never am when it comes to blogging, SEO and shit, I’d contact the support team at wp.com to figure out from the start if I could get back the old wp.com sites I’ve used before. Since this was possible, it would have been great to have made the move right from the start to a better url, but like I mentioned before – I SUCK AT STUFF! At least thinking before hand. I actually think about stuff way more than normal people do. Some stuff basically never leaves my mind and I’m constantly preoccupied with some stupid idea that I probably do not need to think about, but there’s nothing I can do about it. The only thing I can do is NOT act upon really stupid shit, like buying an iPhone just like that. I’m glad I managed to not do that. Really. This is not that stupid, at least not in my tiny little mind… It is just so annoying I didn’t think of this before I made the move to wp.com!

Also, if I’d known from the start with all the crap I’ve gone through with switching web hosts left and right for the last 10 years or so, I’d just kept blogging at wordpress.com and bought my domains through here instead. I never really blogged here, either. I kept a “test blog”, to try out wp.com. I’ve also done so with basically every other blogging platform out there, and self hosted was “always” the best option. The reason why I did not stay here was because I wanted to learn more about WordPress and have 100% control over my stuff, but that hasn’t really gotten me anywhere, unfortunately. In Sweden we have a saying that’s something like “it’s easy to be wise after the event”, and this is just another one of those moments where I should have waited, thought about it more or just plainly skip it. There is a lot of things I regret, but I’ll share that in another post.

Anywho… I’m just really happy that I managed to get back a better url for my blog. Even though the former url did not suck balls, I really missed the old url. And now I have it again! If you’re a bit lazy or something, I’ll keep the best url of them all and redirect it here, which is greatdanemaniac.com

Well, I guess I’ll keep seeing you here then in the future. And when the readership grows someday I hope the blog will return to the main url as well, but I’m being realistic here and I’m not keeping my hopes up at all. I’ll just keep blogging, because it’s so much fun!

And because I need this struggle.

 

This blog is now at Wordpress.com

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Photo of a Chihuahua mix that my mother-in-law has in her home. Photo is mainly for attention purposes.

This is basically just a re-post from my Swedish blog, to let you know that all of my blogs have moved from evil web hosts to WordPress.com. I like this move, and I hope it will continue to work for me. However, since I now blog in both Swedish & English, I thought it would be best if this blog had its own site. It’s pretty stupid to blend a multilingual blog, especially since it’s pretty hard to do, even if you have self hosted WordPress.

I’ve had that for years and loved it. However, the web hosts I’ve used have basically all been messing me up over the years and the latest (and current, since I won’t get rid of them until may of next year 😡), and now I came to a breaking point making me really want to leave web hosts once and for all!

This blog will stay as a free blog, until I get a pleasant readership that’s worth paying for. Before, if I was lucky, I’d get like 5 visitors per week to greatdanemaniac.com. We’ll see how many will join me now. The blog will stay the same. The same kind of ironic and annoying feelings and I’ll keep on swearing a lot. You have been warned.

This blog also has a new url. It is now gdmrants.wordpress.com. I am pretty pleased that the subdomain was available. If I’d been smart, I’d kept or at least I’d make sure that my wordpress.com blogs would have been available for my use, but no. I thought forever and ever that I’d never have a proper wp.com blog, but now I do, and I’ll probably stay this way for as long as I’ll keep blogging. I hope it will be for the rest of my life.

Please follow this blog, and follow me on Facebook as well. I need more followers there, or at least likes.

The dangers of caring way too fucking much…

I haven’t written a single goddamn thing in this blog for almost 6 months or so. Nobody cares, barely a visit since the last post, and that’s all fine and completely normal. This post will be a little about blog stats, and other shit that’s been going on in my life since I last wrote something of use here.

Ze blog stats.

Yeah. I really don’t give a flying F*ck about not getting readers to this blog. It’s pretty rational since I have written basically nothing since the blog started somewhere during 2016. Basically I’m just happy I’ve got my domain back, and I intend to keep it no matter what. When I went back to WP for the last time ever during the summer of 2014, I made a personal commitment that I’d stop caring about readers, getting comments, and people caring in general about my posts. It has worked, at least for my blogging. Not so much for my disastrous YouTube career, but I don’t have the strength to care, really. Haven’t uploaded a video since May 2016 either, even though I’ve tried. Every time I do try to make a video or do SOMETHING, some thing has to happen, which means that I am unable to create a video at that point or do something else I’d like to do for that simple moment. It’s like fate is trying to intervene with whatever I want in life sometimes. It’s really frickin’ annoying when it happens as well.

Another annoying thing regarding stats are those found on my profile and pages on Google+. It used to be my absolute favorite social network, but since people started to not give a shit about me, or anybody else (really? I have no clue), I have simply given up on that social network. From now on, and basically for the past months and year I’m gonna be using it the worst way possible, which is to just post links to blog posts I’ve written and keep not caring about if I get +1’s or not. It’s just to tiresome to even care, and I keep mentioning whenever I leave a comment on somebody else’s posts that I’m boring, nobody cares and that G+, regardless of the past years fantastic upgrade, has become a thing of the past and I miss the interaction I used to have with all my G+ friends over hangouts and such.

The secret…

I have a partial secret. Some people know this, but I’m really not allowed to talk about it officially, like it’s some big life-changing deal. The problem is that for, this “secret” is big. At least for me. It’s bugging the crap out of me that I’m not allowed to write about in in my blogs, or talk about it on YouTube. I have so many things to say about this, because it makes me so happy! Oh, well. Someday I’ll probably be able to let you all know what it is, and then I hope it’s another turning point in life, that’ll get me the attention I’m almost seeking, but more likely – to spread the news I’ve been wanting to spread for years now.

The fatness that is me.

I’ve gained more weight the past year and it makes me miserable for many reasons. I’m trying to do my best to make the pounds disappear, but since long, I’ve accepted this crap and I’m prepared to die young due to being overweight, with the dream of succeeding on losing weight if it’s possible. I know exactly what caused this weight gain, and I know exactly what I should do to get rid of them forever, but if that happens – we’ll see. There are too many obstacles in my way for me to be to hopeful about succeeding…

Why the F*ck isn’t the Google Pixel in my pocket?

I’ve ranted like crazy about this for the past months in my Swedish blog. The Google Pixel has not been released generally in Europe, like the Nexus series. My 6P is getting to big, due to my huge weight gain and now I’m going completely mad about what phone is gonna be my next one? I really frickin’ want a Nexus/Pixel, even though the price for the Pixel is batshit crazy high, but it’s most likely not to happen. I’m even thinking evil, pure evil thoughts about switching to iPhone, and it drives me nuts! I need a smaller phone, with a great camera and all other great stuff about smartphones, because if I do not lose weight, I can no longer have a bigger phone. I really like having a 6P, even though it’s starting to go “bad”. I’m having battery issues and I daily have to charge my phone twice now. That sucks. I’m also a bit curious about the next Blackberry phone, which will have a physical keyboard. I’ve missed that, but it’s far from important for me. I’m guessing that my next phone will either be the Samsung S8 or the horror of an iPhone, either the SE or the 7 or upcoming 7S/8. I really do not want an iPhone, but if worst comes to worst, it’ll have to happen, I guess, since iPhones are kinda good anyways. It just lacks the most used features I need, like the do not disturb system that can be set like a calendar, or sense calendar specific items. I also hate the iOS UI and all the struggles with logging in at the app store (I always have to log in a thousand times, and still not get access to the app store even though I have the correct password and username).

The move back “home”.

In the beginning of December of 2016, me and the BF moved back to Skåne, which is the most southern part of Sweden. We now reside between Malmö and Lund, and we like it here. The reason for moving back was because Henrik got a job at Unity 3d in Copenhagen, and I’ve been smart to save up my points so we could get an apartment pretty easily if we were ever gonna come back here. We’re not gonna stay in this apartment forever, though. The plan is to wait if it feels good and works fine for Henrik, and if it does, we’ll start looking for a new place during the summer of 2017. We’re really hoping to get a small house, like a town house (radhus in Swedish) and as close to Hyllie Station as possible, since it’s the closest one to Copenhagen from here. The next place, will however be as perfect as possible. Great Dane friendly, preferably with two large bedrooms, two bathrooms, storage, parking spot or garage for an electric car and also a lawn of some sort.

Generally, I’m fine. My life is pretty much exactly the same from when we lived in Växjö. I’m completely exhausted most days, yet still I have a new energy I haven’t felt for years. I guess it’s due to being back in Skåne again, with all the lacking snow and better temperatures, not to mention all the stuff that’s a lot easier to do now, like shopping online and eating out.

Oh, and to answer the title of this blog post? The stuff that has been happening to me for the past months are shit I shouldn’t care about at all, really. Everything will work itself out eventually, but personally I can not stop to care about the itty bitty things that keep annoying me, and that’s why I go nuts and get angry, disappointed etc. And like I said, even though I’m in this “mess” of stuff, I’m actually happy. Who could’ve thunk?

I have no idea if the comment system works on this blog, so please try and leave at least one down there, so I’ll know if everything is in order. Thanks!

I’m on Tumblr… and my YouTube channel got a proper URL, if anybody cares?

Yep. Just created an account there again. Haven’t been there for years but do not worry. For those who know me and have read my other blogs for years, know that I’ve changed blogging platforms as often as normal people change their underwear. Or something like that anyways. I’ve been on every single blog platform you can think of, if not for blogging purposes, then for pure testing ones.

This time, however – it’s different. The Tumblr blog will only act as a curator for posts. Nothing more. I’ll test it and see if I like it. I’ll probably not, so don’t say cheers just yet. I’d prefer it if my shared posts to Tumblr were only in link form, instead of spoiling the whole posts. I’ve got less readers than I’d like already. I actually thought that my previous posts would be a lot more popular, but I guess I was wrong.

The other thing I’ll mention is that my YouTube channel moved (yes, again) to another G+ page in order to get a proper channel URL. I know got my old username back, which is great. It’s the one I started my whole YouTube “career” with, which is the same url as to this blog, greatdanemaniac. I also noticed another great thing today, which is that YouTube finally got rid of a very annoying bug that prevented me from deleting shared playlists that I’ve created. I’ve waited like 5 months or something for that to happen. YouTube sure are slow.

That’s why I decided to move the channel. I wanted a better name, url and also a better brand while I wait for the real thing to happen with YouTube. The split between Google+ and YouTube will surely take forever, but I don’t care anymore. It takes me as well forever to upload videos that are interesting enough to watch.

Well, that’s the news for this time. I hope it was interesting enough for you.