It’s time for some new beginnings…

And it starts with me going back to college! Yep. I got in, but I guess that most of you didn’t even know that I was planning on going back to school either, but it’s true. It’s only been like 5 years or so since I came out of college. I should’ve finished college in 2012, but it took me an additional two years to finish my last essay. That was not my fault, but at last I managed to finish it.

That college education made me a social scientist, specializing in people with disabilities and the job market. I however did not get a job in that field, per say… It’s kind of funny. My first real job actually involved working with a project specializing in just what I’ve gone to college for, but it did not make me work with people in the sense I had planned for myself. And that’s fine! My own disabilities are at “fault” for that. I basically thought of myself as a typical worker at a job agency, but the first job I got was a whole other thing. These days I’m however very grateful for my experience.

It’s just sad that I did not realize I wouldn’t have a permanent future as a social scientist. Technically I could get a job working for the authorities, but I’ve applied countless times and never gotten a response so I have stopped trying. Also, with my current health situation I will never be able to work more than 50% and I can only perform relatively simple tasks, so why bother?

The solution probably lies within the IT business. With who I am as a person and what I’ve always loved doing, I should most likely be a developer if some sorts. I love problem solving and with my years as a blogger, using mainly WordPress as my platform I have developed a huge curiosity for code and development. Unfortunately, due to my Fibromyalgia and restless personality I haven’t been able really to do something about this venture that I’m finally gonna start.

I got accepted into college and if I finish I’ll become a system developer, specializing in Java development. I’ll also get a bachelors degree in computer science.

With this new and awaited start in my life, it is also the perfect time for some other changes. For starters, I am planning to kick start my diet into a WFPB diet that is as vegan, fiber rich and nutritious as possible. With my current health status – I probably have no other choice than eating healthier because I have no idea how I’ll get the strength to study if I do not take care of my health as well.

When school starts I’d be hoping I’d use a MacBook for my studies, but I can’t afford one. Until I can or some other miracle happens I’ll have to make due with our old laptop pc instead. As of writing this, I started writing this post on the laptop but it was so slow and laggy that my domestic partner had to reinstall windows on it and it still keeps bugging out on us. Something is deeply wrong with that laptop and we don’t know why. It is a similar problem that occurred with my desktop pc, but my BF has never had this issue with either the laptop or his own desktop so that makes it all a bit more weird. He finally managed to reinstall Windows on it, but I do not like Windows any longer.

After I’ve used a Mac mini since like April or May of 2018, going back to windows just feels so wrong. I miss the seamless experience that occurs between apple products but hopefully everything will be fine when school starts in a few weeks. Windows is cluttered, messy and it is clearly spying software or something.

I got office 365 with being a student again and I’ve installed it on the Mac mini. On windows, I got a suspicious question if I wanted to let my school change stuff in my computer?! Fortunately I could say hell no to that, but still? WTF?! That’s not cool on a personal computer. Fine if it was owned by the school but we bought it 3 or 4 years ago. This occured before the reinstall of Windows. I’m not sure how much I’ll be needing office 365, so I’ll wait and see until I’ll install it again on the laptop.

Also, on our laptop, it’s been a huge hassle with typing, getting languages to work properly and I miss Safari as my web browser. I’ve installed Firefox on the laptop now, but I miss Safari anyways. It’s not a perfect browser, but this laptop fucking sucks! Or maybe it’s just Windows that i dislike?! I’m writing on it again and I keep touching the touch bar, which makes the cursor move and it gets my words all messed up. I am gonna hate this! Not that I’ve tried using a Macbook ever, but it might be a whole lot better in many ways. With MacOS I at least know where to find everything…

I’m also doing my best to try a new thing, and that new thing has to do with iOS. I’ve been having trouble with Google Photos not uploading photos in the background. According to several sources it is due to iOS being “locked in” and not allowing this, but according to others, it’s been considered a bug. I don’t know what to say, because sometimes it does uploads everything without me having to have the app open in the background and sometimes it does not upload a single thing for weeks – until I manually open the app. I don’t know what to think, but after some googling I’ve decided to do some other thing that many recommends. That thing is to leave apps open in the background and not close them after use.

It’s a bit difficult of a habit to learn, since I’ve done this like always on Android and ever since I got my iPhone SE, but I’m trying my hardest now. If I can change this behavior and let apps be left open in the background, it would make many things a lot easier for me. However, after a little bit of testing it did not help at all with Google Photos. However, the photos I took were uploaded to iCloud and to my Mac mini seconds after I’ve taken them, so the problem remains. For now it makes me want to use Google photos even less, because I’m sick and tired of stuff not working properly! It can be a “good” backup, but nothing else, at least when we’re talking iOS vs Google.

After being an iPhone user with a physical home button for mainly all interactions, I’ve still not gotten used to using a home button. It feels weird, but I LOVE, Touch ID. With this new behavior I’m actually using the home button less, so that’s good. So, what’s the reason to letting apps be left open in the background? Well, that’s because iOS closes apps anyways after like 10 minutes and it uses less RAM if they’re left in the background. They say that if you take a picture with Google Photos in the background, it will wake up the app, but apparently not, but I’ll do some more testing…

I’ve also activated Apple Photos to store my photos and videos in iCloud. I still have like 4 GB left until I have to start paying for the service and I’ve noticed that more than 90% of my photos and videos stored in Google Photos are test videos or random, useless photos anyways so if I were to switch fully to Apple Photos instead, I’d be more careful with photos and videos I’d take. The reason I’m thinking of switching to Apple Photos is because it seems to be a more reliable service with faster uploads between devices, even if I do not use the storage option. Even if I’d start using Apple photos I can still continue to use Google photos anyway because it would be a good backup.

I actually tried to download my whole photo library I have on Google Photos, and I have 50 GB of stuff since like 2011 or something. Some of those photos were taken long before that, but I’m counting since I started using Picasa and then Google photos. If I’d go over to Apple Photos I’d probably take more “quality” photos than just random crap just because I can.

Ok, to sum it up – I have definitively noticed that I love being an Apple user and the Eco system is worth it all, even though it’s expensive as shit. I am starting to change as a person as well, because I am so sick of things never changing for the better. With me being an upcoming student again, I am hoping to change a whole lot more than just prefer being an Apple user. If I succeed, I’ll be a highly paid system/software developer, a WFPB vegan who’s lost 20+ lbs and regained her health and hopefully with a better hold on life than I have right now. I hope to change my behavior as well and learn to read books, not to get angry all the time because I don’t know the solution to things and most of all – I hope this all ends with me having a Great Dane by my side. As well as plenty more Apple products to boot 😂

What are your hopes for your future? Let me know in a comment below. Thanks!

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Suddenly my current favorite song has a completely different meaning…

And my current favorite song is Thunder by Imagine Dragons. You can play it below if you have Spotify.

I love this song, for many reasons. The main one is the overall sound of it. I love the bass, the beat, the drums. I never really listened to the lyrics, but after I listened to the latest episode of #CreatorMindset by Jon Prosser, I was yet again moved by his words on how to be a better creator. This time I was inspired, instead of disappointed (or something). In my two last posts about being a YouTuber I contemplated stopping completely at being a creator on YouTube. Today I feel a bit different. I still wonder if I should upload my latest “non-masterpiece”, but I like what I’ve done, even though it’s far from the best. I might rewrite it and do a re-shoot, but we’ll see…

In the podcast, Jon said that the importance of what you create is not the content. It’s you. Why should people care about you? What makes your shit so special, in comparison with all other YouTubers? If a genre is in example here, Jon used Tech channels, since he’s got one himself. I, personally have no clue on what type of YouTuber I am. I want to make it all, it seems, but best is to have a theme. If that is the case I guess I’d like to make educational videos, but I have no idea on how I am supposed to make people care.

What’s special about me? Well, I’m a 36 year old woman, who hates being a woman as well. I suffer from Fibromyalgia and other illnesses. I want to become a “Whole Foods Plant Based” vegan. Now I’m just an unhealthy vegetarian with like 40+ lbs to lose. I want to lose weight and prove for others how it can be done if you’re as lazy as me and have disabilities standing in your way of success. I also want to become a developer, this late in life and I’ve been waiting for a Great Dane for over 20 years. I’ve been “poor” almost my entire adult life and I hate reading books and math is awful. I can’t climb trees, I’m afraid of the dumbest things, really and these days I seem to turn into a whole other person when I turn on the camera to make a video.

How can I make videos with all that in mind? If I take the song, Thunder in mind it sort of also explains a bit about myself. At least when I was younger. I was being bullied – for everything I did or said. Everything was wrong, even if it was the right thing for me. People loved to tease me, yet I couldn’t do much because back in those days you were supposed to be “a girl” and fit in no matter what. I did not fit in. I still do not really fit in and I love not fitting in. And I like to point that out in my creations. I am not like you, and I’m darn proud of it! Or something.

I am quite respected as a person these days and haven’t been bullied for like 15+ years now. I also do not feel most women feel, with all the feminist crap going on. I feel I get the respect I need and I hope it will be the same when I’m a developer. I don’t see a reason why that would change. If it did, it’s probably because of individual assholes who do not like me and I guess that’s fine? Eh, who cares… I’m getting off topic here.

Since I listened to the podcast, I’ve had a thousand different feelings rushing through my head. I’ve wanted to do a rant recording on why you should care about my crappy videos. But since most people wouldn’t watch anything I upload, why should a ranting video be any different?

I’ve noticed I have a style of doing videos. With the manuscripts I save so much time, with both editing and managing subtitles. The downside is that most of the time I look like a robot. At least these days. Look at these two videos below. Can you tell a difference on how much I’ve changed?

And here’s two years later:

On a positive note, the old video I really do see as a masterpiece of mine. Today, while writing this post I watched it again and I love it. That’s my true style of making Youtube videos. At least the somewhat educational ones.

The style of the videos I plan to make now are all the same. It’s like “my current life looks like this – but first a bit of annoying history”. I never really get to the point either. That’s something I know after I’ve re-read some of my newly made scripts that I plan to use sometimes. I am totally clueless, both when I write the scripts and when I do the shooting and editing. I forget so many things and I think I’m writing a masterpiece in the making that thousands of people will love. Nothing could be further from the truth. I make crap videos, that’s for sure!

I wonder if I’ll ever be able to go back, or at least get better at making YouTube videos. It would be so much fun if I could!

Now I wonder, what the fudge shall I do next?

A clarification on what I hope my future will look like.

After I wrote the blog post yesterday, I was completely blown away of the likes and retweets I got on Twitter. Also, I’m amazed at the number of readers and likes here on WordPress. Thanks, guys! One of the biggest things that happened was when I was writing the post yesterday and noticed that Jon, from FPT and the podcast #CreatorMindset actually replied to me on Twitter and even retweeted some of my stuff! That is heartwarming. Huge thank you to Jon, for that!

Anyways. I felt that I should continue this tiny success with another blog post, and clarify some more and also write a post with a happier feeling. Or some shit like that, at least…

As a creator, a blogger and a hopeful YouTuber I do have a vision of what I’d like to achieve. I bet we all have those visions. The difference is if we’ll be able to make them. For me, my vision won’t become true until I’ve got my Great Dane, or at least I know when I’ll be able to buy him. It is so clear in my head what I’d like to do when that day finally arrives. If I should mention it here, somebody might “steal” my idea, but I really don’t care about that. I just want to see it happen, is all. Actually, I’ve been waiting on a YouTube channel that will document the life of a Great Dane in every way that I plan to do it, but I’ve yet to seen it happen. The only channel that has come somewhat close was Honey the Great Dane who unfortunately has gone to the rainbow bridge… All the videos from Honey have been removed as well. A new channel has emerged, that might be a success as well, Finn the Great Dane along with Magic, his older “brother”. The really popular channel Max and Katie the Great Danes, upload videos frequently, but they’re only shorter videos, with low audio and basically the same clip over and over again. Unfortunately both Katie and Max has gone to the Rainbow bridge, but the channel seems to live on with a new sibling.

Actually, my future as a better YouTuber will most likely just contain videos recorded in HD, professionally edited and with the tiny details in mind. The video below gives you an example of what typical videos would look like, when there’s no talking involved.

I’d like to make great looking “vlogs”, training videos, talk about food, the importance of breeding dogs the right way, myths about Great Danes and other dog related myths. I’d like to make videos on how I teach my first Great Dane to be my service dog. If he’s able to come into work with me, I’ll show that. All while making it look as professional as possible. With professional, I mean that I’ll never record shaky video, vertical (horrible, awful vertical videos. Yuck!) and I’ll make sure the audio is great and that the footage will not be boring. When I do educational stuff, it should look professional as well, maybe with the help of a green screen?

My concept of vlogs is also not really the way people usually do it, like walking around holding their phone and showing stuff randomly. I might have sequences of that, but the whole vlog would most likely be me in front of a solid background talking about important stuff. Like a TLDR or something. Or like TomSka’s Content series. I hope that will be achievable someday.

Also, to be clear, I do not sit here and wish I could become a full-time YouTuber. No, way! Even if I would make it, I’d most likely do that as a spare-time thing. My real hopes and wishes regarding my future, is my future as a developer of some sorts. Whether it’s creating apps for a living, make software, making games or just work with CMS’s all day long – I don’t care! As long as I know I can work with something I’m passionate about, and also hopefully something I can be good at while making money and afford a Great Dane, I’m happy! That’s why I think that having the best of two worlds might be possible someday. While I’m waiting eagerly to get a Great Dane, I might be able to do videos like the channel sillysparrowness used to do on YouTube, before she lost access to her channel and stopped uploading. Those videos were great. Down below, there’s an example video of hers.

I’d like to do something similar, but in that case about me, learning to code as a somewhat disabled and “returning-to-school” person. For those of you who don’t know, I already have a bachelor’s degree in pedagogy. It took me 5 years to finish college, because of stupid teachers tearing my bachelor thesis apart. And it did not give me a job. Well, it’s not mainly due to the college program, it’s mainly due to my disability. I’ve applied for numerous job that I technically can have because of my degree, but since I haven’t worked that much and am sure that I can’t work full-time, nobody will even consider me. Also I’ve found out that I can never ever work full-time in any other business then IT business, so that’s why I’m going back to college and hope I can take my chances of working at least more than part time in the future.

To clarify something more, my last job, which also was my first real job – I got because of my personality and it was an adjusted work place, or whatever the term is. I worked at a non-profit organisation where most of the employees have some sort of disability. That place aims to make the world a better place for everybody, especially those with disabilities. It was great working there, but my job assignment was often way too simple for me and with my experience, my disabilities etc, I’ll probably never be able to get a more demanding (aka creative) job unless I switch careers. That’s why I’m going back to college, and I’ll know in a few weeks if I got in.

Until I’m there – I just hope for the best and during this time I’ll consider what kind of videos I should make, or if I should make any of them in the first place. The video about me being a border-line apple sheep is in the making and I’d really like to upload that one to YouTube. At least as a test, or a continuing experiment, but I might have to do some more editing until it’s ready for uploading.

Well, that’s it for now. Thanks for all the likes, retweets etc.

What the fudge am I supposed to do to get noticed around here…

I’ve been thinking about writing this blog post for a while now. At least for a week or something. In my crazy mind, that’s like forever or something, but it seems like, for total other reasons than my original thoughts, I have other reasons to write this blog post as well. I’m writing this with sadness, as well as hope, and I’ve got some people to thank and “blame” for that. But mostly thanks.

A post can take anything from a few minutes to write to several days depending on how much time I spend thinking about what I wanna write. As a blogger I write posts to get stuff out of my head. To make my head (or stupid brain) be quiet. I have found since I started blogging for real in 2009 that it’s basically the only thing that makes my brain go quiet and calm down. I have to write stuff down to not go totally nuts! That’s why blogging is a great tool for me. It’s my own personal therapist or something…

As a blogger, I have never really cared about how I write stuff or who I write it for. This goes for all my blogs I’ve had in the past, present or future. Even this one that actually has somewhat of a theme. As a blogger I basically start all my posts right at the top of my head. Then I just write. I write until I feel I’m finished with the post. I check everything, several times and change or add stuff if it’s needed. I add categories, perhaps a photo or a relevant video, I add some tags and then I post to social media platforms. Then I hope people will read it and learn something. These days people are caring less and less and I know why. It’s because of mistakes I made by changing blogging platforms too often, switching domains and web hotels as often as one would change his shirt and not having a proper theme. I never feel “finished”, because when I do feel that, I tend to change something anyways and I’m back to square one. Because of this I feel that those people who used to read my blogs a lot back in the day have started to put less faith in me, and therefore do not care as much as they used to. Really, that’s fine, but inside I’m desperate for readers, comments and maintaining a growing readership. Something that will probably never happen – until I have learned from my mistakes for real. I always think that day is today. But it’s never that easy…

As a YouTuber, I should probably never even have started creating videos. I’ve probably mentioned this way too many times already, but for a little history lesson – I’ll update you as best as I can for now. Basically I’ve uploaded and created so many videos I do not know where to start. I started the first channel in 2009 or something like that and managed to gather quite a little following. A following that wasn’t enough for me. And then we’re talking like 100+ subs! So I quit. Erased the channel. Stopped uploading. Went quiet. Until somewhere around 2011. then I started a new channel again. Less people cared, even though I spent a lot of time editing those videos and coming up with “amazing” ideas for videos. So I quit. Erased the channel. Stopped uploading. Went quiet. Until somewhere around a year later and then the cycle continues.

Where I am now I can consider myself being a realistic Epic Failure or something. I know where I went wrong, but I don’t know how to fix it. It didn’t help that I managed to create a bunch of videos about the Inman Aligner treatment that got me a lot of views and some new subscribers, only to change the theme of the channel completely too many years to soon. Instead of having a general “bad vlogging” channel about dentistry, I changed it to be all about Great Danes. That’s a dream of mine I’ve had since YouTube came along, but there’s never been a Great Dane in my life I can call my own. And now, since sometime last year or so there won’t be until I’m like a full-time employee as a system developer, which will take at least 3 more years until that will happen.

When I realized that I won’t be getting a Great Dane now, both my current channels died out and I haven’t really done anything to them, until recently. I figured that I’d at least upload general videos about “whatever” to my current “main” channel, but I guess I changed my mind again. And this I’ve done for a great reason, I guess.

I’ve recently started to listen to a lot of podcasts. I find this hobby of mine to be somewhat of a miracle, since my brain can never focus hard enough to read a book instead, but listen in on interesting conversations seems to be a lot easier. That’s why I like listening to podcasts now. Especially after having an iPhone because iTunes is simply the best service for podcasts in my view! And also because I’ve become somewhat obsessed with Tailosive Tech and other related channels like Front Page Tech and Painfully Honest Tech etc…

Today I listened to the newly created Creator Mindset, that’s made by Jon Prosser from the YouTube channel Front Page Tech. Holy shit, did I learn something. It made me sad when I listened to it, but also even more realistic. To be clear, I’ve never intended for blogging or making YouTube videos a thing that I could make money from. If that would ever happen, I’d probably do a whole lot of sponsorships, use Patreon instead of Adsense, sell merch etc. However, like I’ve stated before in this post, I am a blogger and a bad YouTuber who “never learns from my mistakes”. Or at least not let other people know that that’s true or something. I get the feeling that viewers and readers do not trust me.

I’m starting to feel like a stalker or some shit, but I can’t help loving the content I’m watching from so many awesome tech channels these days. It’s basically no wonder why I feel so obsessed with these tech YouTubers. It’s because I feel a connection to them. They have opinions and keep discussions in a way that’s similar to mine. They’re not scared of having opinions. They’re funny guys as well. I mean, I’m in heaven whenever I watch or listen to their stuff! Even though I’m probably old enough to be Drew’s mother or something like that… It’s thanks to them I got motivated and kept the strength I needed to get a passing grade in math during the spring of 2018. Drew, taught me to look at technology from another perspective and respect it. Jon, from FPT made me realize and confirm that it’s ok to be friends with people who have different opinions. Painfully Honest Tech creates videos, even though he’s not in his twenties…

This specific blog have gotten a few followers, and I’m so thankful for that. If I’m lucky I can get like 7-10 readings of a post. But then – when I do not write, the blog is absolutely dead. I mean 0 views when I’m not writing a post. Sometimes it can go weeks before I write something, and if I’ve been lucky in between those posts, I might have 3 readers, but none from Google searches and basically I’ve gotten one comment since I started this blog. I wonder why that is, but I know that it’s because I suck at basically everything that Jon said in that podcast of his. I wonder where my readers are, where my YouTube viewers are. Where my comments are. I’ve done this for years, mind you! Nagged and nagged until I’ve gotten blue in the face. And with each single post or whining about this crap, people have started to care less and less. With their equal and fully right to do so. So I’ve stopped doing that, the nagging that is. It hasn’t really helped my content get noticed, though… But it sure helped my mind to focus more on how to be a better blogger.

Basically only my closest friends and family follows my blogs on Facebook. I rarely get readers from outside my IRL friends. People on YouTube and perhaps other platforms are still expecting update videos about the Inman Aligner, when I’ve made several videos stating that my other channel will only be about Great Danes from now on. People don’t seem to get it. And now I get it…

It’s basically impossible to “become famous” or whatever the term you might use is, if you only do stuff for yourself. I get why I have to and need to blog about my thoughts, because I do need to do that. The price I have to pay for that is that nobody cares, or if they do, they do not let me know how I helped them get better at something. I know that I will only become “famous” or get noticed in bigger circle the day I have a proper theme. On YouTube that will be the day when I know my future first Great Dane is on the way. I might not be a big channel, but my bar is low. Even if I’d reach just a little bit more, I’d be satisfied. At least for now. If I’m being realistic I know that there’s less chance to make it no matter what, but I don’t care. I really want to be a creator – in so many ways.

I personally think that I create masterpieces, but those masterpieces are only masterpieces in my head, because they haven’t led to any kind of success. When I make YouTube videos, I’m doing it for two reasons. One – because I want to make them for myself, because I like the process (editing and writing manuscripts is so much fun!). Two – because I hope that people will learn something, be inspired or at least start to care about other people’s point of view. Hey, my tagline is generally “I like to make people think”. But no matter what I try to do – only I care about my creations in the end. And I guess that’s fine?

So, my dilemma as of now is – what do I do next? I have a YouTube video in the making about my current life as a border line Apple sheep, but after listening to Jon’s podcast – I’m reconsidering if it’s even worth uploading. Chances are nobody will care about it. I will make up half the views by just spending time on making subtitles. If I spend “that much time” and I’ll get nothing back for it – then it probably means I’m not good enough for YouTube. And I guess that’s fine? It makes me sad and angry that I am currently in this situation. My mistakes got me to this situation. If I’d sit tight and just kept my original channel and kept uploading content, I might have had thousands of subscribers by now and I might have even been one of the “bigger ones” on YouTube. Making videos could even be considered an income on the side, if I’d play my cards right, but instead I kept making mistakes and now when I really seem to care – it’s too late?

I know that my last video was garbage. The next one probably is too. The third one and probably every single thing I upload in the future will be a bunch of crap, but that’s life. I have basically never been good at anything. The things I am “good at” don’t really mean anything. Not in a professional life, because my “skills” haven’t gotten me a job because of it. I’m great at speaking in front of people. Making speeches. I’m like fluent in English, even though I’m Swedish. I’m funny and I make people laugh. I basically always have a different opinion then most common folk. I am not afraid of having an opinion.

I’ve always had a busy mind, but I’ve never been able to draw, write a book, make a successful YouTube video. I’ve been on TV, on auditions, and I’ve sung in front of millions of people watching. But I’m no singer. I can’t sing for shit. So I’ve stopped doing that. I haven’t officially sung a song in like 10 years or something. I realized I can’t sing, so that’s why I stopped doing that, even though I loved singing back in the day.

Basically everything I’ve ever loved doing, I suck at. Basically everything that’s more useful – I find boring or too challenging. I can’t sing. Can’t draw. Can’t code (yet). Can’t make useful YouTube videos. Can’t make people love my writing etc. Can’t do shit… But I’m sort of ok with that. It’s not only that I can’t do shit. In most cases, I have physical and mental blockages that stops me from doing these things. I can’t do anything really about those. I did not choose to be born with illnesses and be disabled the way I am.

However, I want to express my thanks and gratitude for listening to that Podcast Jon made. It really made me think and evaluate what’s important. Is it important for me to be a famous blogger? Be known on YouTube as the GreatDaneManiac and get recognized on the streets because my channel is so awesome? Well, not really.

The only thing I want and have wanted for years is a Great Dane, a stable income with a passionate job and a loving partner. I have the last thing❤️, but my 20+ years longing for a Great Dane is more my life story than anything else. The only real job I’ve ever had just ended, and it was not a secure job either, so having a Great Dane while working there would only have ended in misery… It’s hard to make continuous videos about that. Not to mention blog posts. That’s why I’ve sort of stopped, because I can’t really spend time on stuff that nobody besides me cares about.

I do have a clear vision of what my future as a somewhat successful YouTuber would look like. If I can achieve that someday, I know I’ll make it, but it will take something I do not have in my possession today. First of all I’d need a Great Dane. Then only time will tell.

Maybe it will be different the day I start college again? Maybe then I’ll make videos on what it’s like to study software development as a disabled student? Maybe everything will be ok when I can finally afford getting a Great Dane and I start documenting in a really professional way what it’s like to live with a Great Dane… Nobody on YouTube have yet to manage that. I’d like to be the first one! I have really no idea, but until then – I think I’ll stop making any kind of YouTube creations because I do not think I’m made for it anyway. At least not the way things are right now.

No matter what people I know IRL says to me about my mad skills…

My thoughts regarding the 6.1″ iPhone 2018 rumors…

Ok, as per usual – let’s talk more Apple products! It’s not like I can’t do anything else so… I’ve had some thoughts about the rumored 6.1″ iPhone that’s scheduled to be released in the fall of 2018. I, personally hope that this rumor isn’t true, but if it is, I hope that it’s gonna have something more (or less) to offer, depending on how you see it.

If the rumors are true, I wonder – why is that? I mean, why release a bigger iPhone X, but with cheaper specs, probably no 3D touch, lcd screen instead of OLED, and just a single camera? I mean, I have nothing against a cheaper model of the iPhone’s but I don’t understand if it’s going to be bigger than the X from last year. That just seems kinda pointless and weird. Ok, after listening through some podcasts about this topic (mainly Tailosive Tech, of course😍) and watching several videos about it, I know a little bit more, but I still feel that it is such a weird thing for Apple to release. Usually it’s always the smallest phone that is the more “budget friendly” option, so why this change if it’s true?

In my personal view, and also with some of the Tailosive team’s view from an older episode of the podcast, it feels more of a “scam” or something. I mean, it’s more likely that Apple has purposefully released false rumors to throw off the scent from other rumors about the upcoming iPhones leaking out. Also, people got fired from Apple last year – because of the rumors of the iPhone X, so why not spread false rumors?

In my personal view it would also make more sense if Apple would release 3 phones this year, but instead of the 6.1″ phone, they’d release somewhat of a merge between the rumored iPhone SE 2 and the 6.1″ phone.

I mean, I’d preferably see an updated iPhone SE rather than the budget 6.1″ iPhone. At least if the rumors turn out to be true. I will not buy it anyway, since I just got the original SE a couple of weeks back. If the SE 2 would look like the iPhone X, with the notch, had wireless charging, and maybe dual cameras and a starting price of like $500-600, that would probably be a better deal for many instead of the rumored budget version. Unless they actually release both, but I probably see that as very unlikely at this moment. Anyways, with the SE 2 looking like the X, it would most likely have a 5.5″ screen as well. Below you can see what I most likely hope to see when the new iPhones will be released in September. I also think that the names of the phone in my case would be

  • iPhone Mini (former SE with 5,5″ screen)
  • iPhone X (2018 with 5,8″ screen)
  • iPhone X Plus (with 6,5″ screen)
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This is what I think Apple would release in September 2018. Depicted from the left, the iPhone Mini, followed by an updated iPhone X and then the iPhone X Plus. Photo was found on technobezz.com.

If the rumors about the 6.1″ iPhone are true, I really do hope that it will not be a cheaper model. I sincerely hope that it will just be a slightly bigger iPhone X with all the specs, but when I’m writing that, it does not make sense. I mean, why would you want the same phone, but just “slightly” bigger than the 5.8″ version? If it’s only the size that matters, then I guess it would only make sense that Apple would release a newer version of the X and then an X plus and no more, right? Or perhaps add a refreshed SE to the mix with the so called “iPhone 8 treatment”. That means that the SE 2 would get the A11 chip, glass back for wireless charging and an upgraded camera or something, but nothing spectacular. The screen would also remain at 4″ with kept Touch-ID. The price would most likely be kept low, just like it has with the SE since its release.

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Screenshot between the iPhone X and iPhone SE. It’s a huge size difference even between these two models. Screenshot was taken on phonearena.com 

All and all, I think it’s important for a lot of people that Apple will always have a tinier phone like the SE. That’s because of many reasons, I think. Due to the small form factor, to remember Steve Jobs by and many other reasons. Otherwise I believe that Apple will have a huge problem with customers who refuse to buy a bigger phone, just because of “reasons, tho'”.

I’ve stated before, that the phone I’d be buying is the cheapest one where I’d get “everything”. Also, after using the SE for a while, I’d preferably keep the smaller phone factor. But that won’t happen until another few years down the line. Everything also means, the best battery life, the best camera features and the best specs I can get for the cheapest price possible for a a new iPhone. Or old, depending on where I’m at and where Apple is at when it’s time to upgrade.

Also, to point out – I am not a tech reviewer. This is the first time ever I’ve blogged or wrote about my suspicions regarding the next iPhone. I’ve had over the years, of course, learned about the rumors of the next iPhone, but I’ve never discussed them myself, since I’ve never really planned on buying one, but here we are… Finally, right?😂

This is also one of the shortest posts I’ve written in like a year I think. What an accomplishment!

I’m in love with the iPhone SE!

Yep. It’s true. This little thing has started to grow on me like crazy. It does what it should. It’s easy enough to type on and even though the battery is tiny it is only a problem while I’m on the road. As long as I’m home or at least on a great WiFi connection and use the phone normally, I’ll get like 5-6 hours SOT with about 40-50% battery left when it’s time to sleep. That’s pretty good!

I also really like the tiny format in other ways. First of all, it’s easy to hold and handle with one hand. Mostly though, I’ve been using both hands for most tasks, but that’s mainly because I’m used to that. The camera is amazing! iOS 11 is amazing! Everything is basically amazing!

Close up of some sushi I had yesterday. Look at this amazing quality! #mindblown

I got the new custom case as well last Monday and that has made me love the phone even more. You can see the result of my custom case in the featured image of this post. It is awesome to be able to share to the world that I can put whatever I want on a case and make the phone I own even more personal. I love sticking out from a crowd 😉! I love that feeling and the case I got feels like premium stuff! Then being able to put apps wherever I want on the home screen doesn’t matter as much. I really do not miss android. I still do however feel like iOS and Apple are a bit too locked down when it comes to notifications and custom sounds. Personally, I’ve managed to fix all the issues with notifications so far so now I’m all good, but for those who do not know this can be done, it sure is a difficult process to achieve.

I got a bit shocked when I learned that the alarm volume is tied with the ringer and alert volume. However, I’ve managed to solve that issue. I created the song I wanted in GarageBand and the basics of that was that I lowered the output volume in GarageBand to like 20% or something like that and made sure it exported in that volume as well. Then I put the song I wanted as an iTunes song on my phone and then I just had to choose the right song and problem solved! Somehow this is also possible to do in iTunes itself, but I wasn’t able to make it work and after some more testing I’ve concluded that it does not work for turning down alarm volume. It however works for playing songs in a lower volume while listening to music added via iTunes on a computer. A disclaimer however is probably needed. In order to have an alarm with a lower volume, it only works with non-native songs or sounds you’ve created yourself somehow. If you like the native sounds and alarms that come with your phone, you’re stuck since I do not know how you otherwise can access them and then edit them. The sound I used was found on zedge.net (the website, not the app!) and as far as I know it is legal to use. If not, I’m not to blame, the uploader of the sound is.

Also I am writing, mainly the whole post, on my iPhone SE and it works great! The typing experience is far better in English though, since it’s predictable and autocorrect works like a charm. Writing in Swedish works well too, but since I have some problems with my fingers, I have a tendency to spell words wrong more in Swedish than in English. The problem I have, is that instead of pressing the space bar, I instead hit the “b” or “v” button. It’s really annoying but I have that problem no matter what phone I’ve used with a touchscreen. I don’t know why this happens, though but I do not like it. It also usually happens more when I have sweatier fingers. As far as I know I had the same problem with the blackberry sometimes as well so it is entirely my issue and not a touchscreen issue. I have fibromyalgia and I am stiff all over generally all the time, so having trouble typing is just something I’ve gotten used too. I’ve always had trouble using my hands and fingers for basically everything… It’s amazing that I can tie my own shoes and brush my hair, or something. That’s basically how bad my hands and fingers work, or at least that’s how I feel about it. I also have trouble with touchscreens in general if the touch sensitivity is too low and I’ve noticed on this phone that I have to either press harder or hit the right spot more if I want to go back or just do whatever. It could be an iOS issue or just an issue with this phone but I figured out early how to press and where so that’s not that big of a deal anymore.

All and all I loving this phone and I am so happy that I got it! I’m so happy that my boyfriend bought me an iPhone and I love the custom case options I’ll have for a long future to come! As of now I’m happy with the size, but I’m still curious if the iPhone SE 2 will come this fall and what other iPhones will be released as well. No matter what I’ll keep this one for now and I hope that will be enough. It sure is for now, at least!

It is also rumoured that a bigger iPhone with a 6.1″ screen will be released and that it will be a lot cheaper than both the X and the rumoured X Plus. If I play around with the idea that I get to upgrade this year, I’m only interested in the cheapest phone. Or should I say the cheapest one with the biggest battery that also carries the portrait mode and portrait light features.

If that’s the X, the X Plus or the cheaper rumoured 6.1″ X Lite or whatever it’ll be called, I don’t care. The phone with the cheapest price will win me over IF (and that’s a big IF) the other stuff comes with it as well. Otherwise I’ll might buy an old iPhone X in a few years when it’s time to upgrade. Or the latest one if I’m “rich” by then… Like I’ve said before, those portrait photo things and a bigger battery is basically everything I’d want for now in this phone. I have no complaints otherwise. I love this tiny little thing!

Do you have the iPhone SE? If so, what do you think about it? Write a comment below and let me know your thoughts!

Vertical Videos are the worst🙄🤦🏻‍♀️, but IGTV might be the solution…

For those who know me personally, or have read my blog posts for years know that I really dislike Vertical Videos (VV or VVS for short). It might, in my opinion be the worst thing about having smartphones and every “Idiot” having a camera in their pocket. It’s also only getting worse. I remember when VV started to become a thing, back in like 2012 or something. Then people screamed like crazy and wondered what the fudge was wrong with people. YouTube channels made videos after video, asking people to turn their phone 90 degrees and that kept going for years. And then I guess it all went silent. Instead of 8 people out of 10 screaming their heads off about recording videos vertically, 9 out of 10 people now gladly or preferably record vertical videos instead. It’s horrible!

I’ve always said, that if I ever got an iPhone, I’d be like one (of the other 10 or so) out of thousands, or millions of people using iOS that would ALWAYS record in landscape mode, and I am keeping this promise. If not for everybody else, then at least for my own sanity. I find that hilarious and of course I know I’m exaggerating. Its at least a thousand people with iPhones who think like I do in this matter 😂. Ok, jokes aside, but vertical videos are no joke for me. I really fricking hate it! Ok, I’ve calmed down a bit these past years. Instead of nagging and complaining to people to stop record vertically, I’ve instead tried my best to avoid watching videos that are recorded in that horrible manner. Unfortunately the problem is getting bigger everyday and I’ve actually had to force myself to accept that my friends, family members and even my BF records a lot of vertical video. The reason as to why I’ve stopped complaining to them is because it’s useless and I’m sick and tired of turning my arguments into a meaningless fight or something. People still just doesn’t get it!

They say, that’s it’s easier to hold that way. We always use our phones like that, so why not record that way? “Isn’t that the way you’re supposed to record videos on smartphones?”. And the list goes on and on. Well, if it’s so hard for you to hold your phone in landscape mode – get a gimble! Buy a selfie stick! Problem solved! It also doesn’t help when I watch movies or TV series where people record vertically and the video still comes out in landscape mode. That’s not good at all… It’s a straight out lie when I see that in movies etc. I get that it might be meaningless to complain if the video is only meant to be shared locally on your phone, or at least mainly to be watched on your phone if the video is shared on other platforms, but I still see a huge problem with vertical videos. The only time I might accept it (but not really) is maybe if somebody records a close-up video of the Eiffel Tower or something, but then it’s probably possible to record in a different angle and still get the whole view. Buy a wide lense or something! Problem solved. There’s just so much you’re missing when watching a video if it is recorded vertically. Now, for photos I do not complain, because photos are… well, photos! You can and we have watched photos in “portrait” mode or whatever since forever. Portrait photos in vertical ways or whatever are still a problem sometimes, especially if used in blog posts. That’s because then the image is cropped, or just looks weird when a blog post is shared to Facebook, G+ or some other platform. At least for now, so I try to avoid using portrait photos in my blog posts. They’re fine to watch however on whatever platform there is, but videos recorded vertically really freaks me out, even if I do not say anything about it. I’ve simply just stopped bothering people about it, but we, the rebels have lost the battle. Hopefully we haven’t lost the war on vertical videos!

Personally, and for good reason – I do not use any platform that provide vertical videos. By that I mean I do not use that service on Facebook, called stories. I do not use the Instagram version. I have a Snapchat account, but I only got that because a friend of mine told me that it was possible to record landscape videos, but that turned out to be a lie or something. I do not blame my friend for that, I blame SnapChat! Now, Instagram has come out with IGTV, short for Instagram TV. It’s a platform made for vertical videos. To this I say both “Great” as well as “Oh noes!”. Its great in the way that now we have a video platform for all those who love vertical videos. Its great, because then we might see a whole lot less of that crap on YouTube or other video platforms. It is a bad thing because it means that vertical video recording is growing and won’t stop, and that is a thing I really dislike. I shall personally try and avoid using that service at all cost!

Now, if you’ve ever watched the linked video above from Glove and Boots, and you’ve seen the presentation from Instagram, there is a hilarious clip in there that is just too funny not to comment on. In the video from Glove and Boots, they have a character with vertical eyes. He says he loves vertical video, and why wouldn’t he? He’s got vertical eyes FFS! Instagram stole that clip, but the point made from Glove and Boots is like the total opposite of what Instagram is trying to achieve here. That’s how I see it, at least…

Vertical videos look horrible. Always! When they are shared on Facebook for example, they’re often pixelated and never in HD. You miss like 66% of all the action when you record or watch it, even if it’s just for a few seconds. That goes even if it’s your pet you’re trying to record. I wanna see it all! Not just the nose on your dog… I don’t care if the phone is easier to hold like that! When you record video, you do it in landscape mode. Please. Just please. FFS!

Even if you do not care, there might be others who feel awful and can’t enjoy the video fully if it’s been recorded in such an awful way. I don’t even understand how it’s even possible to record vertically. I never have! It should have been banned by the phone makers from the start! In the beginning, however Android phones within the camera app, told people to record in landscape mode, but that only lasted for like 6 months or something and nobody cared. Now I even think Google themselves promotes vertical videos whenever possible. I’ve seen special TV’s at train stations with vertical commercials on them, as the screen is also vertical. It is such a mess! But I guess I have to learn to live with this awfulness.

Maybe someday people will wake up and realise that VV is absolutely horrible and does not belong in any situation, but that’s just utopia or something… I know it will never happen. It is far more likely that we will go to the movies and watch vertical films instead within 10 years. With huge black bars on the side, or a 300 feet high ceiling where everybody gets a stiff neck at the end of the movie. Soon Netflix and other streaming platforms will make TV series in vertical video format. Soon, it might be impossible to even record or do anything in landscape and there we will be. Watching, missing 66% of everything, just because that’s life or some shit like that.

I am not looking forward to that. Are you?

My thoughts about Android… (as a new iPhone user)

In one of my recent posts I wrote that I really dislike Android. That is not really true and I felt after writing that post that I need to clarify my statement a bit further. Hopefully this won’t be a really long 2000 word post, but I can’t promise anything here. Ok, here we go!

I’ve been an android user since 2010 or so. After having an iPhone 3GS I sort of left and never looked back and I’ve been a happy android user for many years. While that might not be the case as of now, it has been a fun ride and I am sad that I feel the way I do about android these days. I wish I could just ignore these feelings and continue being a happy customer, but I can’t. Not any more, and all of my readers that actually care about my posts know all about it by now.

To sum it up, I like (or rather love) Android for what it is in itself. It’s a mobile Operating System that is open source, flexible and very customisable. With Android you can go naked, or Vanilla (aka pure Android) or with a bazillion other features if you go with Samsung for example. Or just Android with the double amounts of apps for the same thing. No matter what, you have a lot of choices and that’s a good thing. There’s a phone for every wallet. Maybe even a perfect phone for everybody? Android as an OS is awesome and I’d probably prefer to keep using it, but here’s the catch:

From all of you who’ve read all my posts about Apple, privacy concerns, Google I/O and also all the fuckups from Google that’s been done for the past years etc. you know what I mean. Android is not what it used to be and I think that’s sad. Although, even though it was not mentioned at all in the Keynote for Google I/O, Android P will enhance many features regarding security and privacy, but from what I’ve learned – I do not trust Google anymore, and therefor I can’t trust Android either. Yeah, Android P might enhance your privacy, and that’s great, but Google as a company still thrives and lives off of your personal data and with all the AI and Machine Learning (ML) they’ve started focusing on, I do not believe that the Android experience will be a lot better, probably only worse. However, if iOS does this better than Android is for me hard to tell, because I haven’t used my iPhone SE for that long. I use a mac mini (late 2012 version) as of now and I play around with a 5+ year old iPad mini 2, and that alone has not taught me the differences regarding privacy and AI/ML stuff. All I know from that is that I really like macOS and that iOS might be limiting, but it’s reliable and have a bunch of nifty features I wish Android would have. The only thing that feels weird when it comes to iOS vs Android is I now have to use the home button and the apps are not placed like they were in my last Android phones, so that makes it a tiny bit harder to find the apps faster, but I’ll get used to that! There are also a lot of hacks and workarounds to get iOS more pleasant, but I’ve figured out most of them for my personal use. Most of them have to do with custom ringtones.

There is also the whole thing about stability that also makes me wanna sway away from Android. The Nexus line from Google is no more. The Pixel phones do not sell officially in Sweden. Samsung puts mainly garbage on their phones and other have their skin on top of Android. If I would have stayed an Android user I’d firstly try out the One Plus 6, since that seem to be the closest reliable phone you could get in the Android world. It would be awesome to have the best of both worlds, a reliable Android phone that lasts like it’s new for like 3+ years, instead of me feeling like the phone needs an upgrade after like a year. The reason why I say that is because of experience. And because I love technology 😉.

Android phones lag, stutters, slows down, crashes, become unresponsive etc and that’s something that usually happens within the first year of purchase. Usually as well, there are no updates to fix the issues. No, its better to just buy a new phone! Not all customers might experience this, but it’s really common. Or they do, but learn to live with it and accept it, or do not realise that it’s a problem. From what I’ve come to learn about iOS devices, that does not really happen, until many years more and then Apple slows down the devices in order to save the batteries. With iOS 12, they’ll probably fix that problem as well and older devices will become a lot snappier again. Also my iPhone SE works a whole lot better than my Lenovo P2, but the battery life sucks when I use it. It’s great on stand-by, but otherwise I’d probably have to charge it twice a day with my usage. That’s also due to me normally starting to panic when I get closer to 50% battery during the day and there’s like 6+ hours until bedtime. I know I don’t have to charge the phone, probably but I most likely do that anyways since I really don’t like it when the battery status is too low.

That brings us to updates and manufacturers of Android devices care of their consumers. Only 6% of android devices have the latest upgraded version of the OS, which is Android Oreo 8. That version was released last fall. That’s mind boggling and I find it absurd that it’s like that low if you go with a more open platform. For iOS devices, it’s basically always been at least 75% of all users within a few months of the release. As of may 31st, 81% of devices run iOS 11. That’s amazing!

And now for the main part – customisation. iOS is known for being limited, hard to customise, but I see it a bit differently from what I’ve learned and tried out for the past week or so. Yes, some things with iOS is really limiting, like how hard it is to change ringtones for certain apps, but in general I have come to believe that the way you customise iOS are in many ways a lot more cooler than the way you can do it with Android. Yes, in Android, you can put the icons where ever you want on the home screen, put them in folders etc. You choose backgrounds and it’s easy to get a custom ringtone for basically every app on your phone. But, where it could matter more is how your phone looks on the outside. Now, unless you have a Samsung phone, your phone is most likely black and boring and looks like every other android device out there. For Samsung phones, it’s easy to get great looking accessories to make your phone shine and look cool. My last android was a “never-even-heard-of” Lenovo P2 phone, so finding a case I liked was really hard. I had to buy one on eBay and wait for weeks to get it and it was not even available in the colour I wanted. That’s because I live in Sweden, and eBay is not available here officially. I also haven’t found a single website online where I could safely create a custom case with a photo or image of my own choice. No, you need a way more popular android phone for that. At least d-brand offers skins for the OP6, but that’s not enough, at least not for me. However, I’m fully aware that there were so called wallet cases for my Lenovo P2, but my sister in law bought one for her phone (she has the same android as my last one). I tried to put that gigantic wallet case in my pocket and found it to be very uncomfortable. Also I am not that interested of replacing a real wallet with a wallet case that also contains my phone. If I’d drop it, I’d also lose my phone in the process. That would not be a good thing.

There’s also the learning curve. iOS is really simple and intuitive, and I’m blown away by the  ecosystem. It’s absolutely amazing how seamless everything is! Before I started to play around with the iPad during the fall of 2017, I thought that the simplicity made iOS also way more complicated than it needs to be. From what I’ve learned and now know, I’ve almost come to prefer iOS over Android, because no matter what device – I know where to find all the settings. For every Android device, it’s always different. I feel sorry for all those non-techy people that have no clue on where to handle their phones. With iOS it’s a simple process and switching to a new iPhone is almost too easy. Especially if you keep a backup in iCloud, because then you could get the exact same setup on the new device as you had on your old one. That’s cool! Not to mention useful. That’s why I prefer to use the Google Now launcher, even though I’ve been using the Evie Launcher for a month or so. when I was still using Android, that is. I prefer Google Now, over Evie, but it’s a little bit better for privacy at least. It was also extremely easy to switch from Android to iOS with the special app, that Apple provides for Android users.

All and all, I like Android for what it is, but I am now an iOS user and I have no plans whatsoever to ever go back willingly. I hope that my iPhone SE will last me at least two years as well.

Also, you should know that I wrote this post several days before posting it, and then I saw this video on YouTube, which basically sums up all my current thoughts about Android in a few minutes. Please watch!

What are your thoughts on Android vs iOS? Leave a comment below and let me know your thoughts!

Guess what?! It did end with an iPhone!!!

Yes, what you’ve read in the title is true. I am now an iPhone user and it happened in a way I never thought was possible. My boyfriend bought me one! He’s said that I won’t be getting another phone from him, but since I managed to pass my math class, I got one as a gift last Thursday and I couldn’t be happier. Well, I could, but like I wrote in my last post about payment plans, you know where I stand. I got an iPhone SE, and because that’s an iPhone – I am thrilled! I love it, and I’ve gotten used to the tiny size of it.

How it happened…

Last Thursday, the day after I found out that I passed math, I spent the afternoon with a friend of mine who was gonna babysit our cat over the weekend. We went to the mall that’s nearby, bought a smoothie and I spent most likely a half an hour nagging about how iOS would be so much better than Android for so many reasons and why I wanna switch over to it. My BF was on his way home and I had a secret plan of going into the Apple store and play around with all the stuff in there, but I still felt a bit ashamed of my Apple obsession, but in the end I never went in to the store. A few minutes later me and my friend met up with my BF. He said he could be a bit late and when we met him he said that he’d been to a store to look for a thing. My first thought was – “Did he just buy me an iPhone?! Nah…” I still hoped it was true, but I figured that it was probably something else he bought. If I was wrong, I did not want to feel disappointed. My memory sucks these days so I could very easily have been wrong. When we got home a bit later, the first thing that happened after we went into the kitchen was that he handed me the box that contained an iPhone SE. I was so happy I cried and jumped around like crazy!!!

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The Space Gray iPhone SE is now mine! I was so happy that he got me the right colour as well! I do not like the white front on iPhones that much…

The photo above is from when I got it out of the box. You cannot believe the happiness I felt!!! It was so tiny and it weighed nothing compared to my Lenovo P2, but I spent the whole evening, basically setting the phone up. It went great, apart from me not getting the chat history from WhatsApp in it. Apparently it can’t be done without some no-name software that I do not want to download, so I guess I just have to start from scratch with my conversations with the BF on that platform, but that’s fine.

So far the phone works great, but I’ve had some hiccups with it. Most of the disturbances lies within the battery life. That sucks! But it’s probably because I’m used to not having to worry about it. Also I sort of can’t stop using it which drains the battery faster as well. The stand-by time is however great. If I don’t use it, basically no battery is used (unless I listen to podcasts for some reason?!), but if I start to do anything it drops really fast. I’ve had to charge it twice, pretty much daily except for Saturday, because then we were at a wedding all day and I didn’t wanna be rude and stare at my phone all day then. The other hiccups I’ve noticed is that it’s sometimes hard to press buttons to go back, but I’ve guess I figured out that I’m pressing wrong. I’m used to pressing exactly on the “X” or whatever button there is, but apparently you’re supposed to press a little bit on the right or the left of it if you want to go back or exit from where you are. Also I’ve notices that some apps tend, not to crash, but I have to press some apps multiple times in order to get in to the app. This mostly happens with communication apps, like FB messenger and WhatsApp if I open them from the lock screen or right after unlocking the phone. It’s a bit strange, but it hasn’t happened for a few days so that could’ve been temporary.

I’ve also gotten used to the size of it now. I tried using my BF’s phone the other day because I wanted to look for something on Android, and his phone felt huge. A few minutes later I used the iPad and that felt enormous! The iPad still feels enormous! Having a tiny phone has its advantages, though, but if I could I’d really go back to having a bigger one. Maybe not iPhone 8 plus size, but at least a bit bigger then the SE. If not for the bigger screen, then at least for the battery life. I am however sick and tired of constantly getting new phones, so I’m hoping and planning that the SE will last me at least two years or so and then I hope I’m able to buy a bigger iPhone – if I’m still that pleased with the experience. By then Apple would most likely have released several improved versions of the iPhone X and hopefully the price will be better in the future for all iPhones. And it actually fits in my pocket!

So far, over all I’m in love with it. The seamlessness between the iPad and other Macs is amazing! We were traveling over the weekend and with a click I could share the wi-fi with the iPad from my iPhone. Absolutely amazing! Among a bazillion other cool stuff I’ve noticed. Apps in general look gorgeous on the iPhone!

The typing experience has also been pretty much amazing. iOS in itself does a better job with typing then Google’s Gboard. The only thing that feels weird while typing is that it’s a whole lot different from the iPad. The iPad has so called “key flicks” or something like that, which makes typing letters, numbers and other special characters a whole lot faster. The iPhone does not have that and even the “.” character is nowhere to be found, normally when chatting with a friend. I guess that’s also something to get used to and I have and overall it’s working beautifully to type on such a tiny screen!

Last Friday, after arriving in Stockholm I went right into a store and bought a case for it. Of course I could find a super pink one in silicone for cheap, and so I bought it. I’ve also today ordered a custom printed case with one of the biggest cuddle bugs ever on it, Gandalf – the Great Dane with a glass screen protector. I’m looking forward to having that case. The pink silicone one works ok. It does not sit that tight as I want it to, but it looks gorgeous and feels great in the hand. I personally prefer silicone cases to my phones, and I hope that the custom case I’ve ordered is in better quality then the pink one. I’ll of course save the pink case and switch between them whenever I feel like it and it feels great to have a phone that’s easy to accessorise.

I’ve switched around as well with the app placements and now I believe I’m sort of finished with that. All my apps are in different folders on the first home screen and categorised and that’s great! I could sure use some widgets, but I guess you can’t have everything…

It basically all feels like a dream, and now I finally feel like I can relax a bit. My obsession with Apple will not cease to exist anytime soon, but what I mean is that it’s now “fine” or whatever to talk Apple products, watch Youtube videos and listen to podcasts etc about Apple without feeling that much shame. It has helped my mind to focus on this anyways and it’s been a silent motivator to help passing with math class and looking forward to the future. Also my mom got an older Macbook Pro as a birthday gift the other week and we helped her out with setting everything up and that felt great. I was able to freely talk about Apple products and even my parents several times mentioned why they are so happy with Apple. The reason for it is because it is simple, reliable and works seamlessly between devices. Before, my mom had a really bad Windows laptop and she’s gone nuts with using that computer. It’s basically due to the laptop not having enough RAM or an SSD, but even with macOS, everything will be a lot easier for her and the family. And that’s something I’m looking forward to as well, because if I can decide as of now, I’ll officially never go back to using Android and Windows full-time ever again. Of course I’ll keep my old desktop PC, because who knows how long the Mac mini will hold, but I’m hoping it will last until I myself have the money to buy an iMac or something in about 3-4 years depending on what will happen the upcoming years for me.

I am now “fully emerged” into the Apple ecosystem except for the Apple Watch, AirPods and an Apple TV, but who’s counting?! However, I don’t think it would be that hard to leave it as of now. As long as I keep being an iPhone user, everything should be fine. The only thing I’d miss as of now is iMessage and the seamless experience that’s come with that since getting an iPhone. It’s absolutely amazing to answer phone calls and SMS on my computer, just because I have an iPhone! On the other hand, I still use Google drive for documents and I can reach those wherever I am anyways and iTunes is available for Windows as well. Also the seamless experience I’ve noticed using photos is also pretty great. It makes me somewhat interested to stop using Google photos and start using iCloud instead, but if I do that I’d have to pay for it. However, in the future when I might afford it and I know I’m staying with Apple I might switch, but for now I’m pleased with having Google Photos, since it’s a free service and works fairly well. The only downside to it is that it takes ages for it to sync across all my devices. iCloud photos syncs seamlessly without me barely noticing. Also,  the iCloud photo sharing and photo stream thing works anyways, without me officially storing all the photos in iCloud so that’s a great workaround as of now as well.

Well, I’m happy as hell. How about you? What were your thoughts if you’ve ever switched from Android to iOS? Leave a comment below and let me know!

Desperate thoughts requires a great payment plan?

I’ll continue with my obsessive iOS, Apple vs Android talk. I can’t stop, as you might as well know. And it’s all getting worse as time moves on. It doesn’t help that I know I can’t spend money on new things. It does not help either that I’ve sort of found a way to get an iPhone 8 plus without breaking the bank too much. And also, it certainly does not help that I lost my job and will become “poorer” even if I’m a student in the fall.

It would be a lifelong dream come true, since I’ve always wanted to work and/or study computer science. My dream of doing that this years hangs on a really thin thread however. If I’ll be able to get a passing grade in my math class I’ve been struggling with during this spring, I might have a teeny, tiny chance of getting accepted to one of the college applications I’ve made, but I guess it’d take a miracle for both those things to happen. If I will be able to get in to college in the fall, I’d be happy as hell, even with less money. Then it would all be worth it. As life is right now it is just “meh.” and I do not like it. Besides that I have wonderful people in my life and food on my table and other stuff without having to worry, there are so many other things I’m longing for right now and I’m so sick and tired of waiting.

If I do not get in, I’m either unemployed until I get a new job or get in to college during the next fall, or I’ll keep studying and go do math for a 4th time. Yeah, in case you didn’t know – this is the 3rd time I’m taking this class! The first two times, however, I wasn’t serious about it and didn’t need it. I just took the class for fun, but now it’s like life or death scenario. I’m kicking myself pretty hard these days for not knowing back then how much I really do needed it for my future. If I had a passing grade already in math, I’d already most likely be a developer of some sorts, but I am not and because of crappy choices I’ve made I have to go back to school, 4 years after graduation because I will not get a full-time, passionate job otherwise. With my current situation, I’ll only be able to work part-time with administration or something and I’d like to try and do more with my life and earn a lot more money to boot.

It all depends on a passing grade in math right now. And all I can think of is that I want an iPhone. It’s a bad feeling. I hate it. It should be a miracle that I managed to keep using the Mac mini as my main computer and that i have an iPad to play around with, but no. That’s not enough… I desperately want an iPhone. No other phone will do right now. I really dislike Android. I do not trust Google. You can read why here, in case you’ve missed my reasons for all that.

When I say I want an iPhone, it’s not hugely important that it’s an iPhone 8 plus. Of course, that’s the phone I’d most likely get if I get the chance, but I’m also contemplating getting the SE, even though it’s so frickin’ tiny. I’ve stated in my last post that it’s not a bad phone, but I really dislike the size of the screen and Apple did not release a new rumoured version of the SE either at WWDC 2018. It’s sort of like this:

Benefits of the iPhone 8 plus:

  • Bigger screen
  • It’s the latest iPhone to get (besides the X, of course)
  • It has wireless charging
  • No headphone jack (yeah, I’d probably wouldn’t mind skipping that one)
  • Easier to type? (because of the bigger screen?)
  • Better camera (Studio Light, Portrait mode etc)
  • Better battery life (than both the X and the SE)
  • Perhaps also better reception due to the glass back?

Benefits of the iPhone SE:

  • Cheap as hell (could buy it in one go without to much financial damage, or just get a cheap payment plan, without breaking the bank)
  • Easier to hold?
  • it’s an iPhone!

Downside of the iPhone 8 plus:

  • More expensive
  • Might be too big and/or heavy? It’s the same size as the Nexus 6P and that one was almost too big, but you get use to it. I’d rather have a bigger phone, now that I know I have pants with big enough pockets to fit the phone in.

Downsides of the iPhone SE:

  • So tiny with huge bezels!
  • Great camera, but no special benefits like Portrait mode etc
  • It’s an older model, two years+ as of writing this

Benefits of both phones:

  • They’re iPhones
  • They’re not Android crap! Aka I’ll probably get a more reliable smartphone experience
  • I’ll get better privacy options
  • iMessage & FaceTime! Huge benefit in regards to communicating with my family. They all have iPhones!
  • Both will be supported and fully functional for many years to come. The SE will most likely get iOS updates for at least 3-4 more years and the 8 plus for at least 4-5 years.
  • I can talk to Siri and/or dictate in Swedish with my accent. That does not work with Android!
  • Both work seamlessly with the Mac mini and iMovie etc. It’s amazing, really! ecosystem for the win! Android and Windows can not even compare!
  • A gazillion other reasons, such as all the cases and accessories you could get and customise them on the outside. It’s a bit hard to do that unless you have a crappy Samsung phone if you go with android… I’d love to have a phone that I could show off with a personal logo, or a favourite photo of mine etc. See an example below:
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Wouldn’t this be an amazing case for a smartphone? It’s a photo of the biggest cuddlebugs out there. A Great Dane called Gandalf!

So what’s the conclusion, then?

Well. I do not know. Not until I get an OK from the BF that I can spend money on a new phone I won’t get either one. I’m sort of to scared to talk to him about it, because of whatever reasons. It’s my money to spend, of course, but I’m guessing that he’d both understand why I want this and also feel a bit betrayed because I’m spending “promised” money on something I don’t really need. And I have mentioned his dislikes about Apple products, but we’ll se. I will not do anything without his approval. Now, that might seem that he rules over me like I’m his slave or something, but nothing could be further from the truth. I owe him a lot. He’s a great boyfriend and I would be nothing without him and I’d basically do anything for him. It means a lot for me to do things with his approval. About 99% of the time we agree on everything we should do or buy, so why not in this case? Because I made a promise – that’s why! Even though it was my own choice… And you already know how “ashamed” I feel about my Apple obsession that just won’t stop.

But that bugs me daily and it keeps me from focusing on other things besides math. More on that later. At the moment it feels like basically everything we own breaks or does not work properly. Besides the Mac mini then, and the iPad that is… My Android phone is buggy, lags and stutters like crazy, and it is unresponsive several times a day. Also with the knowledge that I now have of Google makes me wanna puke and get everybody I know to switch to Apple. It’s so sickening with this privacy and AI crap. Apple can do all that without spying on peopleC’mon Google! WTF?! 

I should also point out that exploring macOS and using the iPad for various stuff has been really great. I feel it has helped me to focus more on the math class, since I no longer wonder what macOS is like and how to use iMessage etc. It’s a lot of fun, and I like that iTunes and the Podcast app syncs as well and the built-in email client in macOS has helped me use Gmail without thinking about the privacy issues, so that’s also great.

Ok, if I check the list and explain a little bit more of my obsession with this it should go a little bit like this:

I’d love to have an iPhone and I am certain that no matter what phone I would get, I’d be happy with it. I mean, anything would probably be better than Android right now. I also have to mention a thing I’ve found out that totally changes everything. It’s not uncommon that people these days get smartphones a long with a payment plan. It’s how a lot of people manage to afford the iPhone X, for example.

For me, it’s a little bit different, for basically two reasons. The first reason is that I’ve sort of made a promise to myself that I would never, ever again get anything on a payment plan. Besides the obvious that is, like a mortgage etc. The promise is basically that I will never ever again get a payment plan for technology or stuff. That’s because of one of my ex boyfriends that fucked up my life totally money-wise.

It’s all fine and dandy as of now and it has been for over 5-6 years or so, even though I’m getting poor again, because of lack of jobs and hopefully becoming a student. I’m the “poor” one now, but together with the awesome current BF of almost 10 years, our lives are great and we are more rich than poor, really. The other reason for not getting payment plans for smartphones or technology is due to money and me being smart about spending it.

I prefer saving up and buying the stuff without having a bunch of loans etc to pay off. It’s cheaper in the long run. Also, I am a person who rarely makes phone calls and do 95% of surfing the web on wi-fi, so my phone bill is really low. It’s generally between $12 and $18 per month and I’d like it to not exceed that, if I’m honest. Basically all my phone calls go to family members as well and all of them (except the BF) have iPhones! At least the family on my side…

Most payment plans for an iPhone in Sweden right now is somewhere between $37 and $55 depending if you’d get the X or the 8 plus. And on top of that is often a really high phone bill of at least $22 or so depending on your carrier of choice. The “low” price of $22 is a set amount “all-you-can-spend” phone buffet per month, but many carriers in Sweden usually have at least doubled that price. It’s more likely the norm to have a phone bill these days around $100, including a payment plan for a smartphone so I’m really on the low-end here.

I have gone with one of the cheaper carriers, so that’s why I’ve managed to have such a low phone bill. Basically, my point is that a payment plan with a set amount is at least $60 or so, and that’s not cheap. For me, personally that means I’ll get $40 less to save every month, so it’s not really an option for me.

However, the thing I’ve come to know is really mind boggling. It’s something I thought wasn’t possible to do any longer in Sweden, but it turns out it is. It is possible to make a down payment on your payment plan and also you could pay the rest of it whenever you’d like as well and keep your original and current plan with the carrier. It’s sort of amazing. That means that I’m in a situation that sort of looks like this:

Scenario 1, I’ll get the iPhone 8 plus:

  • I’ll make a down payment of $608 or so (which is the equivalent to what I’d spend on the OnePlus 6 if I should have gotten that one instead)
  • The rest, which is $400 or so without AppleCare+ I’d setup in a payment plan that spans for 24 months and/or pay it off before that when I feel I can afford to.
  • The monthly bill for my phone bill would then be the original $17 plus an additional $16 or so, which would be more satisfactory for my wallet. I don’t spend much money and that I’d personally could live with. Having a working phone is like all I ever need, or something so that in itself is not that expensive.

Scenario 2, I’ll get the iPhone SE:

  • I’ll get the whole phone on a payment plan and do not pay anything upfront, except for maybe 25 cents or so. Then the monthly bill would be a total of $27 for 24 months, unless I’d pay it off in advance.
  • Or, I’ll buy the whole phone at once which I could get for as little as $367, which is a lot less than $608 that I’d originally plan to spend on an iPhone if I’d get one.

What would you choose if you were in my shoes?

No matter what, I’d get a customised case and a screen protector for my phone, just because I can and because it’s a must. I do not know id I’d get AppleCare, but it would surely be recommended if I’d end up getting the 8 Plus.

And this was another long post. I might have to change my tagline… Long rants about veganism and Apple?😂