Some upcoming topics, and also – this is a test post?!

I’m mainly writing this post to check if the post will be shared properly to Facebook this time around. There’s an issue that’s been going on lately, but it seems now that wp.com has acknowledged the issue and the problem lies with FB themselves for messing something up in the sharing process from WordPress.com. Also, I’ve been thinking about some topics I’d like to discuss, or at least just write about, and here they are:

Veganism:

  • Why dogs are NOT omnivores, but (scavenger or opportunistic) carnivores. Even though I’m not a scientist, or an expert on dogs – I don’t understand why the GI tract for humans and other animals is mentioned for why humans are supposed to be herbivores, but it’s ignored when we talk about obvious carnivorous animals (besides lions?!)…
  • The whole stupidity about “why I’m not vegan anymore” trend that’s going on and the obvious pattern they follow, making meat lovers hate on veganism even more…
  • Why I will go vegan some day and why I’m not there yet.

My current life:

  • My plans for the summer, and how I plan to try out (as far as I possibly can) – a Whole Food Plant Based vegan diet during the weekdays, focusing mainly on getting as much fiber and nutrients as humanly possible (for me at least, don’t wanna mess anything up).
  • More on how math sucks, and how I came to almost like it. Or perhaps hate it even more.
  • My life as an upcoming developer, learning Unity, making a puzzle game and frustrations/happiness deluxe situations with various programming languages and platforms.

Disclaimer!

Considering I am the person that I am, I can not make any promises that all of these posts will be written in the near future. By near, I mean at least before summer is over, or something of that nature. Either way, I’d appreciate it if you’d read all of my future posts, subscribe to the blog by filling in the form below, follow it on Facebook and all that other fun stuff. You can find me on basically all the platforms out there. Links to my social media is found somewhere on this blog, in the widgets most likely in the footer or sidebars… (depending on what theme I’m currently using)

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WordPress.com is becoming too good…?!

But first of all – if this post gets shared to Facebook with the customized publicize message intact, I’d consider it a miracle! That’s why you have to click in order to read something more if worse comes to worse (if you’re seeing this on social media or on the blog feed at my blog). Read on to know more…

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My life = never ending math…

And o’boy does it suck! For those of you wondering where I’ve been for the past two months, I can reluctantly say – on the couch, passed out and pissed off struggling to put together the energy that is needed to pass this ridiculous math class I’m currently have to take.

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It’s time to start thinking about that first summer job…

Since I started college in the fall of 2018, I’ve had a plan that I’d be looking for work after year one. First I’d like a summer job and if that goes well, I might be doing smaller jobs for that company later on and if not, I’ll be trying to do that for some other company instead. Then in year two I’ll continue to look for employment over the summer and hopefully get one (or just continue with the current company that’ll have me) and it goes on and on. However, during the fall of 2020 I have to have a part time job with a salary at least around $1400 before Swedish taxes, but preferably not more than 10 hours per week of labor. Or some other task that’ll get me some money to be used for rent and such until I’ve graduated in June 2021. One example would be to take care of a website and /or create an app for a company where I get a bigger sum of money that I can use to pay rent and other expenses until I graduate. After that I hope I’ve landed my dream job, if not already long before then but as of now, I think a lot about my future and where to go next.

In order for me to even get a job someday, I have to have a portfolio, preferably a website dedicated to my developer skills and some apps to show off to a future employer. During these few weeks, I’ve started to do just that, but before you’ll feel happy for me, let’s just say it all turned to shit before something good could come of it. I got a web hosting thing started again with the web host I used last time. I need a service like that both for blogging and for development, so access to databases and PhpMyAdmin etc is very useful. However, after tinkering a lot with some code locally on my computer – I noticed and got told that this would not work with my future and current java applications, due to many reasons. This sucks, but somehow I’m glad, because I still do remember why I stopped messing around with stupid web hosts and that shit. Still, somehow it is different now, since I’ve actually started to learn how to do this! Not to mention I’ve always wanted to learn this, so in a way it’s perfect for this since I’m a student now. It’s just shitty no matter what that this happened, but I am glad I got my money back from the web host.

To solve the database problem, I’ve started to play around with cloud services. That is so advanced that I have basically no idea what I’m doing, but I’ve tried following the instructions and no matter what I do, I can’t get my code in IntelliJ to work with an external database. It only works with a local one, which is fine, but I’m lazy and would love if I could have access to an external MySQL database so I could use that DB on whatever computer and/or network I’m on. It works to connect MySQL Workbench etc to the cloud, but the code get’s “access denied” messages or other errors… I think it’s due to me not using the right libraries but I have no idea on how I should do it either. We haven’t been taught this stuff in school yet… at least not how to use external databases.

Still, it is useless it seems and I am not sure that I should be spending my time on this. It might be too early for everything. Many of my classmates say that to find work within IT as a developer after your first college year would be a miracle if it was possible, so many of them will work with other jobs to get some money over the summer breaks. In my current situation, with me having the “ability” to not get a job anywhere else then within IT, I have to take my chances now. Also – I do not want to work with anything else than programming! I am not the best student in class, but I think I know enough to at least try. Also I’ve learned so much this semester, even though I’ve been by myself 90% of the time. I’m amazed at what I know today regarding Java, programming and OOP as well. I still suck at terminology though, due to my memory problems that are explained by my illness Fibromyalgia.

Also, I have a backup plan. If I do not get hired over the summer I shall spend it creating the game I’ve wanted to create for so long and hopefully that will be popular enough so I can make some money from that over the coming years. I do not believe it will be super popular, but I’m mainly gonna make that game for myself. If somebody else wants to play, great! Go buy it! It will be a lot cheaper than you think if I can release it to the public, and most likely not free… In my mind I’d rather pay $1 – $5 and be able to play my match-three games without loosing lives and having to wait or be bothered by ads or DLC stuff. If all goes as planned with that stuff, it will be released on iPad, Steam and perhaps Android and iOS devices with at least a 5.5″ screen. Size does matter for this game… At least in my mind it does. Don’t know about you…

So now you know what I’ve been up to. Let’s hope for the best, shall we? And also, do you have any recommendations on what to do with a portfolio website? I have a Swedish site for this already, but I want one in English as well, but WP on WP.com at least is not so useful for this and I do not want to spend more (or any money) if possible. $4 a month for my main Swedish blog is more than enough, thank you very much…

My review of the iPhone Xr…

I’ve had this new phone for a little over a week and I love it more and more. I’ve almost gotten used to the size of it and the pop socket helps a lot with that. It’s getting smaller by the day, haha!

The battery life sure is amazing!

The battery life is more than amazing and I’ve actually started a little experiment where I will charge it less. I mean, I see no point in charging the phone where I got more that 80% left after using it normally for a day, so I shall wait and see how many days I can get from normal use. Normal use for me is mostly about checking social media a few times a day, perhaps taking a photo or two and surfing the web and perhaps doing something else. Since I started college again, being hotspot and listening to hours of music on Spotify is also regarded as normal use. The same day I started this post, which is also the same day I started my little experiment, I got like 8 hours of use with 30% left and that means it lasted for like 40 hours! I left it fully charged on Monday morning at 6:30 AM and at 11PM on Tuesday night I had 30% left. If I wouldn’t be a person that get’s freaked out when the battery goes below 50%, probably could’ve waited another day for it to charge, because it would probably last like three whole days with normal use for me. Yesterday I spent the whole day almost on LTE because I was at the hair dresser becoming a blonde person again, and so I used my phone a lot while I was sitting in the chair becoming a bit prettier.

The finished result of my hair. The photo is a portrait mode taken with the TrueDepth selfie camera on the iPhone Xr.

Usually I get about 2-3 SOT’s when I use a phone normally for a day with somewhere between 75%-85% left with this phone. The battery status is different for each day since I got the phone but I have noticed clearly that I get a whole lot more battery life out of this phone than probably any other phone I’ve had. The biggest change is on foot. Also I do not game on this phone. I’ve started using my iPad for that purpose instead, because of the bigger screen.

Listening to music on Spotify for an hour on the train with my iPhone SE usually dropped the battery life with at least 25% and over 30% if I’d been hotspot. The other day I listened to music and was hotspot for an hour and I lost about 10% so that’s a huge difference. With my usage I probably could get between 12-16 hours of SOT and that’s amazing!

My only complaint?

The only problem I have with this device is that I can’t use it even more than I’d like too. As of now I’d like to be glued to it and to everything on it, but that’s almost impossible even if it’s doable. To help with that I am actually writing the beginning and maybe the whole post on my iPhone Xr. It’s going great thanks to the predictive typing apple has but the bigger buttons also help a lot with it. Believe it or not but I do think that the popsocket also helps with the typing, but I could be wrong.

The screen is more than good enough.

The screen is great, not blurry at all and it looks awesome. Since I came from an iPhone SE it looks the same and I had no complaints at all about that screen either. I like that it’s changing the brightness automatically without getting to bright or dark depending on the situation. It’s especially nice at night since I have not yet been blinded by the brightness when I wanna check the time at 3 AM.

Those amazing-OMG-fantastic photos… 😍

The camera, oh my god – the camera! It’s so amazing I hardly know what to do with myself. It’s a freeing feeling to know I can take amazing selfies and photos no matter where I’m at. Most of the selfies I’ve started taking lately with the iPhone SE has been taken against the best white wall in my apartment but with this awesome camera I can take them anywhere. Even in low light. That’s great! Finally I can write blog posts without leaving the couch! 😂

Me doing a funny faced selfie on the train. I love the portrait mode features on this phone!!!

Face ID is far better than Touch ID.

Face ID continues to amaze me as well. It recognizes me in the dark as well as when I have something on my head or my hair not in a ponytail so that’s also great. Not that I really had an issue with Touch ID, but Face ID is certainly a lot nicer.

No sign of touch decease or anything else.

Another thing I’ve noticed is that the touchscreen in general works better. One thing that almost bothered me with the iPhone SE was that pressing where you’re supposed to in order to go back or somewhere else rarely worked. In order to get it to work, you usually had to press beside the button. This is not true with my iPhone XR and that’s good. That must mean that the SE might’ve had a mild case of touch decease or something. I can’t say for sure but since I’ve used this new phone I have noticed that I can press where I should be pressing and pressing beside the buttons does not work and that’s good. Aka it works as intended.

The gestures feel so much better than to deal with double pressing the home button in order to get around. Since I already knew how to do all of the gestures from watching too many YouTube videos about iPhones they felt normal to me from the start. Even though I usually suffer from having very wet fingers from sweaty hands, the gestures work wonderfully.

The price is a problem? At least outside of the U.S…

Basically I have no complaints at all about this phone. Well, perhaps the price but that’s not Apple’s fault. I even got it at a cheaper price since I did not buy it from the Apple store, but it was still very highly priced. Still, if my plan works as I want it too, this phone will be my daily driver for like three years. If that’s gonna be true, it will be the phone I’ve had for the longest time. Still I believe that it is a great investment for the future since I really don’t think the next years iPhones will bedazzle me away like this years models have. If they do, I’ll be surprised since I do not care for AR, 3D stuff etc regarding camera features.

Yes, the iPhone Xr can take portrait lighting photos of your cat!

And how do I know this? Because I was “silly” and went out and bought one. Yes. I could not hold out any longer and I just hade to let the crave of a new phone win. I still am half unsure if I made the right choice, but the phone is amazing and all those few things I still battle with will most likely subside in the near future. The stuff I’m referring to is the size of the phone and those missing camera features, but I am so certain they are no biggies in a few weeks. If nothing else the huge battery life will make up for it.

Ok, on to the camera stuff! What I mean with the title of this post is that it is very much possible to take those amazing photos with black background of your cat, as well as other objects by using the selfie cam, or the otherwise known name – the TrueDepth camera. It is not yet possible to do this with the rear camera, due to the Xr’s general limitations, but there are other apps out there that can fix that problem easily if you’d like to take normal portrait mode photos of your pet.

My cat Maja, taken by the kitchen window with black background.

The only struggle or problem with this is getting to frame the object or pet at the right moment with the selfie cam. With the photo above I was really lucky and managed to get a photo of her without half of her face being blurry etc. Even though the photo is not perfect, it looks 100% better than any other photo I could manipulate myself in Gimp or something like that and that means that it’s worth every struggle! If I’m luckier in the future I’ll be able to train her to be more photogenic, but my best bet is that Apple actually allows portrait studio and lighting photos in later updates of objects and pets.

Now, about that purchase…

I don’t really want this post to be another one about Apple products, but if you’d like to know the story of how it happened, here it is:
On Saturday the 12th of January I was so bored out of my mind that I did not know what to do with myself. I wrote a blog post in my Swedish blog about my struggle about what phone to buy, and at the end I wrote that I should go to the nearest store to play around with the phones some more. I had actually thought of a plan, at it was that I went with at the end. The plan was if I got the Xr instead of the Xs, I could actually afford to get AppleCare+, a screen protector, a cheap case, a popsocket etc without spending more than what the iPhone Xs costs or maybe less than that. I had then and there decided, since I found out the price benefits of that choice that if the TrueDepth camera actually can take photos of objects (not just pets, but objects) it would mean that it can take portrait mode/lighting photos of pets as well. That meant that the iPhone Xr was the better choice, even if it’s bigger since I get a whole lot more for the “same or less” amount of money spent. The popsocket was something I’d like to try because of the bigger size and so far I like it a lot, but with my next case I’ve ordered that’s custom, I probably need to re-position it a bit.

Ok, so how’s the experience so far? Well, the first thing I think of is that I got an enormous phone again, but with a (ginormous) perfect screen. It feels like it’s three times the size of my iPhone SE… There is just so much screen! My mind is almost blown because of it. The battery life is also great. Yesterday I had like 3 hours of SOT (including background stuff) and I ended the day with like 85% left, maybe a little bit more and I used the phone on and off between 9AM – 11PM or something like that. With my SE, I could have days like that too, but only on days where I barely touched it. I am looking forward to what it’s gonna be lik when I’m traveling back and fort to school as well as those days when I have to be hot-spot to work on stuff outside of Wi-Fi. I am usually hotspot several times a week, or at least I have been lately due to group meetings with classmates not being held where there’s safe Wi-Fi to be found.

The setup of the phone was almost perfect. I had to do an update if iOS while I was setting it up, but besides that I was amazed and so glad that the iCloud backup worked like a charm. It remembered all my folders, my wallpaper and almost all the logins as well. That did not work when I setup my iPad in September btw… The only thing I had to fix was some banking stuff and security measures and that was it. I was done! Absolutely amazing! Face ID is awesome. It feels so easy, almost like a step is missing and so far I do NOT miss the home button. Actually I’m glad to be rid of it, because I did not really like it on my SE. However, I prefer using Touch ID on the iPad, because it works a whole lot better on that device. On my SE, I had to press – hard whenever I needed to use it, and my sensitive fingers did not like that, so I’m glad I don’t have to do that any longer. Of course I’d probably prefer Face ID on the iPad, but the huge downside of that for me at least, is that I wouldn’t know what side is up or down. Yeah, I know that with the newest iPad Pro that does not matter, but for my stupid brain – it is. I like to know what side is supposed to be up, so for the iPad, I’ll be keeping it or using Touch ID for as long as possible. Don’t worry, I do not feel at all – for one bit that I must or need to replace the iPad yet. I love that thing and it’s as close to perfection as I could get for a device like that. My hope at least with this iPhone Xr purchase is that I can let my Apple addiction subside for a bit, because now I do not want to focus on that any longer. I have a new phone that’s like the ultimate phone in every single way and I hope it’s a device I get to keep for at least 3 years or so. There have to be something absolutely amazing for the next iPhone models to happen in order for me to feel I want a new phone again. Perhaps a really low price would be it, but as of now – no. This is the phone to keep.

I got it in black. At first I was thinking of getting it in Red, to support Apple’s Aids campaign, even though I actually hate the color Red. If the phone would’ve come in hot pink (magenta) that would be the “duh” choice, but it was not an option and I’d hide the color with a skin or case either way so the color does not matter. I’m glad I got it in black, really even though it is a bit boring, but the custom cases I shall use with this phone will sort that problem pretty easily. Whenever I feel like I need a change – just order a new case and change the wallpaper or something. I should be able to keep that promise at least. Do something like iJustine does. She on the other hand have like a 100 cases for each iPhone she’s ever owned or something, but if you’d like to change up your phone, why not do it with a case? And a custom one as well! Customized cases is like the best thing since sliced bread in my opinion, or at least if feels like that since I became an Apple fan and an iPhone owner.

So, now I’m off to enjoy this iPhone Xr and I look forward to how it will let my life become a little bit better, by being a phone I can rely on, take amazing photos on and type on a little bit better than with that tiny screen of the iPhone SE…

If you have an iPhone Xr, how do you like it? Let me know by leaving a comment down below. Thanks!

Let’s talk iPhone prices!

It’s no secret that iPhones and Apple products in general are expensive. But you often get what you pay for. The higher prices, the durability, the stability etc were many of those selling points I had that made me switch over to iOS and the Apple ecosystem in 2018. I have not regretted it since. Like I written in my last post, the obsession of getting more Apple products instead keeps getting bigger and bigger. It won’t stop sometimes until I have every last product available to me with the  logo on it, or at least it’s starting to feel like that. But what’s keeping me from buying more stuff from Apple? Well, money and the general idea that I actually (and really) already have whatever it is that I need from them. I have a pretty big collection today of Apple products and I love them and the feeling of having them.

If I could decide 100% about everything we own in this household, basically all technological stuff would be an Apple product wherever possible. The reason? Well, stability, durability and longevity. But those prices… The only thing I’d consider cheap in the Apple product line is the Apple TV. The reason for that is because our crappy collection of Android TV’s (Nvidia Shield) are really crappy and more expensive than an Apple TV. We have three of them, and one just died and we had to swop it out for a new one. Another one, has started to lag, glitch, it keeps restarting and crashing and it has always – from the beginning crashed whenever we watch a movie on it. At least 9 of 10 times that happens. It’s considered a miracle when it does not happen, or something. The third one we barely use, but the few times I’ve tried it’s been basically unusable, so I am not impressed and I’m pretty tired of bad products. I only want stuff that works, reliably, and Apple has a bigger tendency (from rumors and experience) to build stuff that lasts without issues and that’s one of the main reasons I switched from Android and Windows to the Apple ecosystem.

Then there’s the epic story of me always wanting a new phone. Or at least a phone that does what it should that I can rely on no matter what. A phone that lasts and keeps me satisfied for years. Since the Google Nexus line vanished, that’s been a true obsession, because I haven’t really had it. For the past years, that’s been hard, and my reasons for “hating” on the iPhone SE are so tiny, that it’s almost hilarious. I stand by loving my phone, but like I mentioned in the last post, it’s just to tiny in every way, but the iPhone prices are a huge deal for me as of now, and that’s the main thing keeping me from getting a new one. Also I do not want to get one on contract, even though it is “oh, so tempting” these days. But no. The reason for that is that I’ve made my financial mistakes in the past and whenever I stopped making them, I have money. Go figure?! If you don’t spend it on unnecessary shit, you have money… Who could’ve thought? If you don’t spend it on crap, you can actually pay rent. You can have food on the table and live a good life. Just don’t spend it on shit you don’t need. So I’ve stopped. Also I’ve had many phones on contract, and sooner rather than later, I’d like to get a new phone and then I’m still locked in with no way to pay it off without losing my left arm or something. Surely, it’s not that bad today. That’s why it’s sort of tempting to buy on contract because I can pay it off whenever I want. Like I wrote in my last post, I’m just extremely cautious with my money these days and I don’t like having anxiety over what I’ve spent it on. I do spend money, mostly on food, but that’s more important to me today than just getting a new phone every year or something. And now on to the actual post topic. The iPhone prices…

If you’ve hidden under a rock since this blog started, or just don’t read my stuff very well or perhaps you’re here for the first time – you might have missed that I am a Swedish person living in Sweden. My home country is a huge fan of iPhones. Almost 60% or so of all the smartphones sold here are iPhones. Still, we as many other countries such as Canada pay the so called “Apple tax” so the Apple products here are more expensive than in the U.S and some other countries that do not pay this specific tax. In the U.S, many of the Apple products in my book are considered cheap, or at least cheap enough to not break the bank. The iPhone X that came out in 2017 was priced in Sweden about $1300 with today’s money value (jan 2019). That was really expensive, but this year, it’s even worse. Now the cheapest option for getting an iPhone Xs 64 GB is priced at $1400 in the Apple store. If you’re lucky you can save about $100 at other places, but let’s go with the Apple Store prices for now. The “cheaper” iPhone Xr costs about $1070 at the Apple store, and for that phone it’s really expensive as well. These prices are ridiculous, but I personally do not blame Apple for these huge prices. I know it’s because our Swedish crown is worse against the dollar today. Adding to the U.S and those tariffs or whatever, also hikes the prices a whole lot for many countries. But it still sucks.

In a more “normal” world, the correct prices should be at least $150 less. As Swedes buying a lot of Apple products, we’re happy to pay the price for those amazing phones. If the iPhone Xs cost around $1100 that would be a whole lot better. Even $1200 with today’s money would be an ok price, even though it’s “holy-shit-that’s-expensive” price, it would be better. If the iPhone Xr actually cost what what it should, about $899, it would sell out faster than I don’t know what. It’s this year’s price hikes that have failed customers a lot. There are still many people at the Apple Store, and many are buying iPhones still, but I have yet to see an iPhone Xr on the train. All I see are mainly older iPhones or iPhone X’s from 2017. Those sold a lot!

If I should mentioned, like I said before – it is possible to save about $100 if you buy the latest phones from other stores than the Apple Store, and that’s good. The cheapest available for the Xr is just above $1000, but for me, it’s still a bit too steep for a phone of that kind. I at least thought so before I played around with it and realized that the phone is awesome, so now I’m not so sure. The real differences are minuscule, really so if you’re not as obsessive about black backgrounds as I am, you’d be stupid almost not to get the Xr and save a few in the process.

Also I do not know for how much longer I’ll be able to keep my iPhone SE, but I shall try and try and try until I go blue in the face to not buy a new one because of everything and more that I wrote about in my last post. It is driving me nuts, but I should also point out that everything in my head goes in like Speedy Gonzales speed or something, so I can make up my mind fast, and if I generally “take some time to think about it” it mostly means that I’ve made a decision in like 2 hours where many think about it for days or months. The biggest enemy I’m fighting is time, really because everything goes so slowly outside my stupid brain. I feel like I do think about stuff for a long time, but all I do after I’ve come to a conclusion is repeat myself until the problem is solved, and that’s my current situation with all Apple products, but mainly iPhones. And that can go on for years!

It’s like a current loop. I’ve come to the conclusion a while back that I want a new phone, for stupid reasons. Still, I want one. The things I’m contemplating until I’ve actually bought one are:

  • Is the iPhone Xr camera enough? It sure is in every other way…
  • Is the Xr too big? I want a bigger screen, yes, but I hesitate with the phablet aspect.
  • Will the Xs battery life be too small, even though it has all the camera features? No matter what it’s almost guaranteed to be better than the iPhone SE… Anything would be better than the SE’s battery life!
  • Can the Xr take cat selfies with Portrait Lighting using the TrueDepth camera? If so, it’s a given winner – but nothing online says so 🤔
  • How fast can I get myself a custom case made after I’ve actually bought the new device?
  • Will I hate myself if I buy a new phone too early? (probably not, I’d most likely be relieved.)
  • Will the $340 price difference (in Sweden) between the Xr and Xs matter if I really can keep my next phone for like 3 years? Probably not…

After I played around with the Xr and the Xs at the Apple Store the other day, I thought of the amazing idea that I could actually put my cat, Maja (pronounced [Mah-ya]) against an even background, put the Xr on a stand on the floor, set a timer for portrait photos and just go to town with burst mode. Hopefully that way I’ll get a couple of nice photos of her when I need too, and for rear portrait mode photos, there’s an app called Halide or something, and I’d easily get that one if possible. If this plan works, aka that the iPhone Xr actually can take selfies with pets using those portrait lighting and studio effects, my biggest problem is solved. I tried the camera in the store, photographing my hand and another phone and I’ve got some great results, and there is an easy way to get bokeh effects with a normal camera as well, just get the subject close enough and you’re done or something. Below you can se what I mean, all photos are taken with my iPhone SE.

The only thing I’d really think I’d want for those rear camera photos are portrait lightning of my cat Maja and perhaps other people in my life, because they can be so full of expressions, with that amazing background. But I don’t know if I’m being too greedy or something with the choice between the Xr and the Xs. The battery life of the Xs and the bigger price tag is what will decide it for sure, but I’m pretty sure I’d be more than satisfied with the Xr after the last post and experience at the Apple Store. I just wanna make sure that I’m 100% satisfied with the purchase of my next phone – no matter what. That way I won’t be that easily persuaded to upgrade yet again when the new iPhones come out next year etc. No, the next one must absolutely be the phone of choice. The phone to master them all. The phone that is the best of the bunch in all different ways that could easily have or get enough camera features that I would not care that much about newer models. Like I felt when I bought the latest Nexus phones. I’d love to have that feeling again. A phone I’m so extremely satisfied with that I won’t budge, even if I’m a little bit curious… I wonder. Is that the iPhone Xr, the Xs or some other phone?

I can say right now that with the rumors of the iPhone X1 getting 3 cameras on the back seems a lot like overkill, so that’s why I sort of feel like upgrading now. I am not interested in a phone with 3 cameras on the back, no matter what that extra lens could do…

I played around with the new iPhones today…

And oh, fuck – do I want a bigger phone! Seriously. It’s crazy. Don’t get me wrong. I absolutely love my iPhone SE, since it’s probably the best phone I’ve ever had, but it’s so tiny and I hate writing on it, because all words are so often misspelled. By the best I mean that’s it’s the most reliable phone I’ve had so far. I’ve written about this before, when I first got my iPhone SE, so read more in that post to know more. However, this iPhone and Apple obsession never seems to end. It just goes on and on and on. And I do not know why! Isn’t it enough now? Apparently not. I need to have more than just an iPhone, Macbook Pro, Mac Mini and an iPad with the Apple Pencil. I tried the AirPods and I’ve also bought a magic mouse. Sadly the AirPods did not work well enough for my ears, so I returned them after a few weeks. Now I use the OnePlus Wireless Bullets instead. They work fine, but I’d much rather try a pair of BeatsX bullets instead, since they have the W1 chip. That chip is great, because it means I can easily switch between the Apple products I have, but with the OP bullets, not so much. I’m seriously thinking of giving those to my BF and buy myself a pair of BeatsX instead, but we’ll see what happens. No matter what, I want (need) this Apple obsession to stop. Like seriously stop!

One photo of me taken with the iPhone Xr from an Apple Store. I love the black background effect!

Like the title of this post, I do have to tell you about my experience today, playing around for a bit with the new phones. I just had to! It was totally necessary so I could know more. I played with all of them, but mostly the Xr. All the photos in this post are from that phone, including the featured image. The reason for that was because I wanted to try taking black background selfies with all of the cameras, but when I played around with the next one, the Xs, the camera features threw me off a bit. That was because of I noticed that I couldn’t take those light studio photos of objects, only of people and because of that I forgot to take selfies with it. Later, it turned out that it was because of the environment of the store and lack of good backgrounds that was the issue, but still, I’m sad that I couldn’t take any selfies with the Xs. I wanted to know if the camera differences really are such a big deal, because I’d really like to get a cheaper phone if possible, next time I buy one. As of now, it seems even more that the Xr is more than good enough for me, but the three big differences still remain.

ModelXrXsXs Max
PriceWinnerSomewhat winsToo expensive!
SizeSomewhat winsWinnerToo big, but best for typing
Camera featuresMisses portrait lightning on rear camera and no “bokeh” effect for petsHas all the featuresHas all the features
Battery lifeAbsolute winner according to many sourcesProbably worstWinner

With the table above you can see my reasoning of all the devices. At first I have to point out that they are all too expensive, but since they have different price tags, one must be cheaper and one more expensive. In Sweden the prices are outrageous, but that’s a topic for another day. The Xs max was most likely way too big, but sure it was absolutely best for typing. It’s also too expensive, unless I’d get it from somewhere else and I can pay the same price as a normal Xs, so that’s ok. But it’s too big and the Xs Max is most likely out of the picture now. the Xr wins easily with it’s price and the size is ok. As of today as a 8 month-ish iPhone SE user, it felt a bit too big as well, but I liked it and everything about it was a whole lot better than I first anticipated. I did not notice the bigger bezels or the notch. All I cared about was the camera and typing experience. If I’d someday decide to get that one, I’m sure I’ll be more than satisfied with it. The Xs felt best to hold in the hand, but worst at typing, due to the smallest screen, but the screen size was more than enough either way. The LCD screen was also amazing on the Xr, so that would be no problem for me whatsoever.

The three biggest deals for me are price, camera features and battery life. I need a phone that lasts me through a whole day while I’m at school and preferably longer. This means I need it to have enough battery left when I get home so I don’t feel like panicking. Panic occurs when I have less than 50% and it’s before 6PM or something like that. I guess I’m lucky that way? I need the phone to withstand at least 1 hour as hotspot, 2-3 hours of wireless bluetooth listening to Spotify while on the train and be used while I surf the web and go through social media. It’s not necessarily needed for gaming, since I only use my iPad for that these days. It would also be nice if I could take many photos and a video or two without loosing too much battery. With my iPhone SE I have less than 30% often when I have days like that and I’ve been to school and I fucking hate it! And often on those days, I’ve only been away for like 5 hours and I get home at 2 PM. I do not think that’s normal behavior for a phone. Maybe for a phone with that tiny battery, but still, it’s not good. Also the typing experience on the SE sucks! Especially in Swedish, so I am doing everything I can to type on it as little as possible. In order for me to write on it properly I have to use so much energy to make sure I hit the right keys and still, it wouldn’t work that good. I really dislike it but I am still ashamed of thinking of a new phone because of many things and I shall write about those next:

I got my iPhone SE as a gift from my BF for getting a passing grade in math in june 2018. That was amazing! I’ve told myself from the start that I hope this phone will last, and it will, as long as I never leave the apartment and only browse the internet, or something like that. If I use it for anything more, especially out of the house it’s a problem within minutes of use. I hate to be bothered by it, but at the same time I can’t stop thinking about getting myself a better device. If I wasn’t attending college right now, I probably would not care that much, but since I am, and I’m finally doing something with my time, my tiny phone with its tiny screen and tiniest battery in the world is really an issue for me. It makes it hard for me to focus on other things if I’m not doing something really important, like studying, but right now, I’m on the Christmas break, so I’ve gotten more than needed time to think about getting a new phone. Even though I don’t “really” need it.

There are solutions, of course. Always bring my charger with me while on foot. Use a computer to chat whenever possible, and since I’m not an active vlogger on YouTube or that active of a blogger on WordPress, there’s really no need for a fantastic camera in my pocket, since what I have absolutely does the job. I do all of that today and I save my money and I will continue to do so as long as possible. But still, I can’t stop thinking about it and it drives me nuts! I seriously hope I can solve this or stop thinking about this without buying a new phone before it’s time to upgrade anyway. No matter what I will upgrade this year, because I can’t stand these “tiny” issues, because they are tiny. Even as a pun. Tiny as being unnecessary feelings and tiny because everything about the SE is tiny!

As long as I can continue to not buy a new phone just because “I can”, I am considering myself to be a hero or something. You have seriously no idea how much energy and will I have to use in order for me to stop these “buying” feelings… And it’s only gonna get harder after today with this new experience. If I wasn’t so greedy when it comes to money, or cheap, or just simply “I do not want to spend money if I absolutely do not have to” as a person, I’d have an 8 plus, X, Xs, Xr or any other expensive and new(ish) iPhone in my pocket already. However, in my life as of now, since living most of my days rather poorly since I left home in 2001 – I love to save money and not spend it. Like Scrooge MacDuck, without being a billionaire. As of now I’m just a “poor student”.

Spending money makes me nervous if spent on the wrong thing, because I’ve done so way too much when I was younger. I do not want to repeat those mistakes again, so I want to make sure that everything I buy these days are worth while, even though I’m not considered poor by any means any longer, because now I save instead of spend. I bought my iPad with my own money when I started school, and luckily that purchase has not caused me any anxiety whatsoever. I even think about it as a “free” device since I’ve then gotten all that money back by saving each month and I use it on a daily basis for both school, and many other things and I love it. If I perhaps can think of my next iPhone the same way, by continuing to save money and eventually getting it back (by continuing to save money), it will be a lot easier? What do you think? What would you do if you were in my shoes?

Another photo of me with a black background. This time, my face is in color.

I seriously hope 2019 will be a year of sustainable change!

It’s been way too long since I blogged here, but like you readers should know, I’ve been way too busy with school during the fall and rarely had the energy left to write about it. School has worked out like I imagined it would. I’ve gotten some friends and I’ve struggled with my fibromyalgia and I’ve gotten to re-take basically all exams so far. I hope that with some change in my routines and a better way to study that I’ll improve with everything next year. What I’d need is better lunches and breakfast to bring to school and find a way to stay in school and just study a lot more than I’ve done before. Or perhaps just study more efficiently. I have studied, a lot. I basically spend all my time available to my studies, but since I’ve struggled to prove what I’ve learned and had to taken re-exams anyway it’s been pretty hard, but still a whole lot of fun.

During the current class I’m taking we’re making a text adventure game, and that’s a lot of fun too. The only downside is that we have regularly been totally bashed by our teacher at the project meetings, but that’s more due to we’re all noobs at programming and also because of no clarity regarding what we are supposed to do. It’s all been a misunderstanding after another, but at the last meeting before Christmas, we showed him that we can do this, and during the holidays I’ve kept on going and we’re gonna have the most awesome text adventure game we possibly can when it’s time to present it in a few weeks.

I guess that’s all I have to say, really. I just hope that with better routines, better food to eat that many problems I currently struggle with will be a thing of the past soon, but in order for something to happen, I myself have to make sure it does. I guess, that’s gonna be the real struggle…

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Programming terminology – and why I suck at it…

There are some important words to remember, that I have to learn. That I still haven’t learned, or I keep forgetting them. Damn fibromyalgia!🤬

Words like allocate, processor, expression, value, arguments, constructor, parse and a gazillion others. I’ve studied programming now for over a month, almost two and I’ve learned the “basics” of just programming. I know how to declare variables, arrays and lists. I also (think) I know what they are and how to use them. I don’t really know what they do and what they are for, but I’m gonna learn it eventually. Or I know it, but can’t explain it in words, just in code.

I know what the different loops are and when they are (probably) most useful, but I can’t really explain them. Yeah, same problem even there… If I were to have a discussion with classmates it seems I’m one of the experts, but some days I don’t know a thing or something… The biggest problems I currently have with learning Java and programming in general are the basics underneath the basics and how to remember how you did that thing to get that output. People have also said that you’ll only remember how to program if you keep programming. Practice makes perfect! And that’s true!

For example there is an error I’ve gotten quite often since learning about arrays, and I have no idea why. It’s called StringIndexOutOfBoundsException and I got a tip that if I get an error, I should “read up” until I’ve solved the problem. The problem with my stupid crappy brain is that the documentation to me is often gibberish for my brain so I do not understand the explanation for the problem. As a beginner programming student, that might be fine, but I realized today that I should understand this gibberish and know how to solve it, but I can’t, unless I’ve encountered it too many times and learned how to solve it (or to prevent how to make it happen in the first place) and then I’ve learned it. That doesn’t necessarily mean I know what that error was, but I made sure it didn’t happen again when I’ll run a program.

I’ve noticed that I learn the majority of programming by actually programming and making mistakes, trying to fix them. I do this often the wrong way, by asking others instead of reading the books, googling, visiting stack overflow or reading the documentation. It’s a bad habit I am trying my best to change and I’m slowly improving. Note, that there’s nothing wrong in asking for help, but sometimes I’ve done this first instead of trying to solve something myself or I “cheat” and watch the tutorial video or have a look at the teachers provided source code.

I have to clarify, that often when I peek at the source code, it’s to find ONE way to solve my problem. I often try and try again until I turn blue in the face but the more I try, the more I learn, regarding programming itself, but just not the how and the why or something. My main problem is still to “read up” on stuff and picking up the book is really hard, but I have to try. There is apparently no other way…?

How to remember all of this, all the terminology and such is a huge hassle for me. It’s mainly due to me having fibromyalgia with brain fog as my main enemy besides aching muscles and total body stiffness some days of the week. If it’s not everyday, that is. My muscles basically always ache no matter what. If I’m lucky I can have better days where I remember more and I have the energy to do more as well, but those days are very few if they occur at all. Generally I have maybe two weeks in a year, scattered over the whole year where I feel like I’m on top of the world and can do anything. Most days I’m so tired I don’t know what to do with myself and now as a college student – it fucking sucks to have these disabilities I struggle with!

I understand the basics of programming and I’ve learned a lot I think, but clearly not enough to pass the final exam in a few weeks. If I’m in class and the teacher explains something, I understand what happens, but I do not use the correct terminology for it and I keep forgetting what the words are. I still in the end will learn and understand what I’m supposed to do to solve something, but the solution for it is basically to explain something to me like I’m three years old and in very plain English sometimes. At least on those days where my brain really does not want to work and I can barely find my way home and know my own name…

One example I use is instead of saying something like: “You haven’t allocated enough memory to/for the processor to run the program or installation”, I say “Do you have enough memory?”. See the difference? I know in this situation that you need at least good enough hardware (in this case memory or RAM) in order to do something with a computer, but I can’t find the correct terms to use – so I use whatever words I can find. I still understand (somewhat depending on the fibromyalgia) what’s going on, but how do I prove it using a piece of paper during an examination? That I have no clue on how to fix…

Anyways, that’s what I have to change. I need to speak more using data terms. Otherwise I’ll never learn this properly or get a proper feel for programming, because then I won’t understand it. Not to mention I have to get better at math as well, but yeah – that’s a whole other story to tell…

I also suck at reading. I hate reading, because it’s boring and I seldom learn anything by reading books. I prefer watching stuff, trying it myself, discussing it with others and writing about it. At least when it comes to learning something new, which I basically want to do all the time if I could. I feel that I need a different approach to learning programming, and even if I pass this class, I’m guessing that my knowledge of programming will become enhanced after I’ve done some more creative stuff. I had the idea that I wanted to make a little project of my own, in order to feel creative and “satisfied” wit how I learn everything I’m doing in college right now. The solution would be in my mind to create sort of a super quiz where I use all the knowledge I have regarding programming to ask myself questions about Computer Science as well as programming. I’d make sure to have all the sections in this quiz so I’d learn everything and then I’d answer the questions myself.

This is probably a great idea but there’s a huge problem. I do not have time for it. I barely have time to get to class, “read the books”, and do all the tasks asked of me by the teachers. I spend over 30 hours per week (not included traveling) including valuable time on the weekends to make sure I’ve done all I can for the next lecture or deadline. So far I’ve made it in time, but when that’s done – I’m so pooped the only thing I can do is watch tv, eat something and then go to bed. I haven’t seen a single friend I think since the first week of college, because I don’t have the energy to spend for anything outside of school. I fucking hate it!

I love school, it feels so right but sometimes I wonder if I’ve waited too many years to do this. I did not feel this bad 10 or so years ago when I started college the first time in 2009. My health, even if it was not good, it was not as bad as it is these days. Weight gain and a lot less exercise and interesting hobbies are the result of that, and especially a very poor diet!

Anyway, even if that program was a full-time thing, I did not spend 40 hours a week studying. About 5 – 10 was enough for me in general including lectures and seminars. And it’s been like that no matter what I’ve done in a full-time program at school or work, except obligatory hours I had to spend in middle school and high school. This is the first time in my life where I’m really active, using my brain and most of all – where I actually want to learn something and become something special or “something more”. And if I can – I will do this for about three more years and then hopefully full-time at my future employer.

I felt like crying yesterday, because I thought that if I can’t do this – my only choice is to be poor, probably never able to afford a Great Dane and have lousy, non passionate jobs that a robot can do instead. Also it will mean that I’ll never be able to work more than 20 hours a week… Not that I desperately want or need to work 40 hours a week, but the pay is pretty low when you can only work part-time and only simple desk jobs that are very non-creative. If I could work 20 hours a week and earn like $3000 a month (at least before Swedish taxes), which gives me about $2300 net income, I do not need to work full-time but I doubt I’ll earn that much with so few hours. Just to clarify – that income might seem low to you, but for me it’s like three times as much as I’ve ever made, being unemployed or with a disability pension. I felt like a rich king with my first job, but I did not earn that much in total, but I do not spend money, really. I like saving up, but I’d love to earn a lot more money in the future so I can save a lot more.

Anyway, going back to what happened yesterday, about what I realized. That made me so sad and angry. Not to mention frustrated. I have like 2 weeks or so to study like crazy for the exams. I feel pretty sure at the CS class, but I have to study a whole lot more for the programming class, but as long as I at least can learn the terminology I’m probably gonna pass the class. Since I am a student with a disability I can get help from the college, but I haven’t contacted anybody yet, because I’d like to try first myself. I feel like if I could do some extra credit stuff, I’d could probably earn myself a passing grade, but we’ll see if that’s even gonna be necessary.

I love what I’m doing. I couldn’t want anything else, but knowledge really and some better routines for learning. But it’s fun, challenging and if I make it – the possibilities are endless!