Why I’m not vegan – yet.

Potatoes, broccoli and chickpeas straight from the oven

This is a rant, and also some information to all those angry vegans who do not accept other non-vegans no matter what reasons they might have for not being vegan. Like comparing them to being murderers, rapists or pedophiles. FFS! How do you think you’re helping the vegan movement by those saying those words to people?! I think you’re a jerk😡. In the video below, Brian Turner explains a little bit of how I feel about this as well. It’s worth a watch!

My reasons for not being vegan might seem stupid for many, but I stick by my choice. I’ve been wanting to go vegan since 2012 or so, from the first time I saw Forks over Knives and all those older vegan documentaries. The reason for why I’ve waited for so long is because I waited for my BF to also see the truth and follow along and at least become vegetarian. Anything else about him and his choices/reasons I’m leaving left unsaid due to showing him some respect. This blog is about me, myself and I anyway and what I think about stuff.

When I finally went vegetarian I was so happy. I thought that it would change everything, that I’d finally be healthy, loose all the weight and regain my former self with less brain-fog and less pain in my body. So far nothing has happened. It’s been the opposite. I keep gaining weight and my health is worse. My belly is about 38″ (97 cm)wide, where it really should be around 26″ (67 cm or at least below 70 cm), and I’m gaining inches in places I did not even know I could fit more fat.

Just to be clear. Before I gained all this weight I was an adult and my belly or waist has always been around 65-70 cm, with some minor fluctuations before I got together with my BF. I was of the illusion that I could never get fat, because in my family we basically only gain weight by having kids and I wasn’t having any. Growing up I always ate a healthier diet than most, with lots of vegetables and fruits, and candy, chips and all that other good stuff was only meant to be eaten in a tiny quantity on some days. That means that I’ve been used to eating everything in moderation, but I was planning on having an adult life where I could eat candy etc whenever I wanted to without gaining weight, since that would be impossible. Little did I know back then that eating crap and lots of it makes you fat – even little old me, vegetarian or not so there you go.

I should also mention that even as an adult, before I got together with my BF, I did eat whatever I wanted for many years, but I still kept it in moderation. A bag of candy, or a bag of potato chips could easily last for days before, but now – not so much, unless I eat all of it by myself. Then it could probably last for days, but I’m more interested these days to let go of the processed crap junk-foods and eat more WFPB, as you well now by now.

Disclaimer!

My weight goal is not to be as skinny as possible, just to be healthy again and feel better than I do right now. Have more energy, find my words easier and have less pain as well, have clothes that fit better, like I did when I was a lot younger. I’m not trying to be anorexic, orthorexic or anything else. Just healthy! Let’s continue with the rant, shall we?

My boobs have gained a cup size (and maybe a half?) since I started to gain more weight about 3 years ago. Yes, before I went vegetarian. It’s been a slippery slope for oh so many years now… Why? Because I’ve become more lazy, more tired etc due to eating a really crappy diet. Yes. You can eat crappy by being vegetarian as well. It’s so darn easy when you eat processed crap and too many cookies. And I hate it! I should be glad if I get 10-15 grams of fiber in me on a daily basis and also if I meet all my nutrient requirements. I probably have not for many years. At least not the fiber part… And my IBS let’s me know it! Not to mention my acid reflux.

In January of this year (2019), I made the decision to advance a whole lot more vegan foods with more fiber and Whole Foods (WF). I have sort of succeeded, but it’s gone slow and instead of losing weight, I’ve actually gained some more, but it’s more like I haven’t tried enough and I’ve still been eating too much processed crap, candy, potato chips and cakes/cookies. As soon as I eat more healthy with more fiber and WF, I notice a difference within a few days. I did however loose a tiny bit of weight in the beginning of the year, but I quickly gained that back when I had a bit of a setback and ate a lot worse again for a few months.

Now it’s summer and I do not have to attend school daily so eating better will be a lot easier. I’ve noticed that those annoying fat deposits I wrote about earlier above have decreased a little from my new eating habits, but it’s going slow as per usual. Hey, better that they slowly disappear and never come back instead of they keep getting bigger and I get more uncomfortable. The first time I tried to eat the way I do now, it was a success, but it did not last. The reason for that was because I mainly just ate the same stuff over and over.

I was fine and am fine in general to eat the same meals often, but the choice of daals (lentil stews) was not a good one. At least the ones I made. They became boring so fast! It was the main reason why I quit, because they only tasted good the first day or so. This time, the plan is to eat more what I feel like and don’t blame myself if I get less fiber for breakfast or lunch one day and a whole lot more some other day. I hope that this summer of a whole lot more of a WFPB vegan diet will help me get my strength and health back so I can continue on this path for school later on when I go back for my 2nd year. That is if I can pass half my math class… 🤬

The plan to become more vegan is to try to eat both my breakfasts and lunches completely vegan and when possible, maximize the fiber and nutrient intake. The best would be if breakfast and lunch together would be around 50-60 grams of fiber. Here’s me hoping for the best! I’ve been checking cronometer a lot these past two weeks since I started eating like this and it’s looking good. The main reason for using cronometer is to check the fiber content and nutrients, so no worries! Many people tend to panic when they hear people using that site, but it’s a really good source to check that you’re getting enough nutrients and fiber in your diet.

It’s a lot easier than I thought to get 50+ grams of fiber a day, and as long as my dinner is not really low grade in nutrients, I basically meet all my requirements and that’s good. The only problem with eating that much fiber is that it takes me like 5-6 hours at least to get hungry again, and that’s a problem right now with the planning of dinners. I’m working on that too, and the best solution is to have a fiber rich smoothie in the morning and try to eat lunch at noon or way before 1 o’ clock.

A fiber rich smoothie, for those of you who wonders means that I use about 30 grams of chia seeds, about 15 grams of flaxseeds and sometimes 10 grams of psyllium husk powder in my smoothies to get all that fiber in. I also try to always have 100 grams of everything else, and always use rasberries or some other really fiber rich berry in the smoothie to get more fiber. Generally, I can get a smoothie that’s nutrient dense and fiber rich with about 35 grams of fiber if I use the basis I mentioned.

This image above show what a typical day of eating breakfast and lunch would contain. The hummus is added for like a possible sauce for dinners and/or dipping veggies in for lunch. The oat milk is added for vitamin D and B12. The brand of psyllium husk seeds does not matter, there is the same amount of fiber in all of them. I get 66 grams of fiber and 91% nutrients targeted from just eating this on a daily basis. I could certainly live like this.

With this base smoothie I get almost 50% of my daily targets. That’s pretty awesome. I drink it slowly, I can get about a liter(32 oz) of smoothie of this. I have to use more water due to the psyllium husk powder. If I did not use that, I’d get a 5 dl (16 oz) smoothie instead, but the fiber is more important to me right now. Below is a list of ingredients I use normally in my smoothies. It’s a good thing to thaw the berries and other frozen stuff first before blending.

  • 100 grams of frozen rasberries
  • 100 grams of frozen strawberries
  • 100 grams of frozen spinage or kale (or other leafy greens), optional but use frozen to get a 100 grams of it easier.
  • 30 grams of chia seeds, crushed or not
  • 15 grams of flax seeds, whole or crushed (In Sweden, only whole are available)
  • 10 grams of psyllium husk powder
  • 1 liter of water (32 oz), or half if psyllium husk powder is not used and berries are thawed beforehand.

I am taking my steps towards being vegan slowly, and I’m doing what I can to change the stuff in my home as well. I now use the humble tooth brush, and whenever I can I use vegan shampoos and conditioners. Sometimes I’m “forced” to use non-vegan stuff, but that’s due to my own mobility issues. For example, I am lousy at using my hands for anything other than typing on a computer, so washing my hair with a shampoo that does not lather that much only makes my scalp itch, so I have to use other products for that. There’s a lot of buildup and residue, and only a well foamed shampoo helps with that.

If I could find a vegan shampoo that lather as much as any non-vegan product, I’d buy it without having to rinse and repeat. I find that process tedious as F. I actually have started to hate washing my hair, because it takes so long. Now I’ve got shorter hair again, but it’s still tedious to wash it and conditioners generally also make my hair greasier a lot sooner, so I really do prefer using only shampoos when possible. I’ve also tried to switch out other house hold products such as dish washing soap and cleaning products to vegan ones.

If I was the only one living in this apartment, everything would be vegan and chemical free, but my lovely does not like the vegan products. He believes they do not make it all clean, but that’s bullshit. I clean our toilets with this soap and it works wonders! I’ve done so for years! The hand wash soap in my current bathroom is almost always a vegan one as well. My current skin products are almost all vegan. I’m not so sure about some of them, but all the lotions are vegan at least! Now I only have to find a toothpaste that’s vegan and lathers a lot. Do you have any ideas on brands to use? Leave a comment and let me know. I now use Aquafresh, which is most likely tested on animals and with the toothpaste itself containing tiny plastic particles that’s hurting the oceans and the fish. I’d really like to not use that (due to the plastics issue), but I have not found an alternative yet. But according to their websites, it’s totally free of animal products, so that’s good! I really like that toothpaste! Knowing that it’s animal free makes me feel better about using it.

To sum it up, I’m doing my very best to be more vegan in my life. My goal is to be vegan someday, but when I’ll get there I have no idea. If I could eat like i plan do to during this summer, that’s more than good enough for me for a foreseeable future. My plan is not to go vegan overnight, go all in and stop being vegan after X weeks, months or years. My plan is to go vegan and stay vegan. Until I die! When that day happens, I’d stopped wanting to eat the processed non-vegan junkfoods, candy and cookies etc or I’ve found really good replacements for all of them. Even if I never get to be a 100% WFPB vegan, that’s fine. I’d like to have cheat days, like I’ve written before, but it would be good for my health, and the planet if my food was like 90% WFPB and 100% vegan. That’s the main goal to be honest. Any step towards that is a great step in my opinion. You have no idea how proud I feel of myself when I have completely vegan days of eating.😍

But right now, I’m glad I’ve started to do something for real again and I’ll do my best to keep on doing it. If this works like I want it too, it could mean that I’m gonna be vegan within 3-5 years or even sooner than that, but if I go back to my bad eating habits again, I’d might as well be dead of cancer and/or heart disease before I’m 45. That’s how bad it probably is or will be if I change nothing. Considering the bad place my health has been for so many years, I have to do my best to be better, eat better, live better. When I go vegan, I’ll be vegan for life.

And this is how I plan on doing it.

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It’s time for some new beginnings…

And it starts with me going back to college! Yep. I got in, but I guess that most of you didn’t even know that I was planning on going back to school either, but it’s true. It’s only been like 5 years or so since I came out of college. I should’ve finished college in 2012, but it took me an additional two years to finish my last essay. That was not my fault, but at last I managed to finish it.

That college education made me a social scientist, specializing in people with disabilities and the job market. I however did not get a job in that field, per say… It’s kind of funny. My first real job actually involved working with a project specializing in just what I’ve gone to college for, but it did not make me work with people in the sense I had planned for myself. And that’s fine! My own disabilities are at “fault” for that. I basically thought of myself as a typical worker at a job agency, but the first job I got was a whole other thing. These days I’m however very grateful for my experience.

It’s just sad that I did not realize I wouldn’t have a permanent future as a social scientist. Technically I could get a job working for the authorities, but I’ve applied countless times and never gotten a response so I have stopped trying. Also, with my current health situation I will never be able to work more than 50% and I can only perform relatively simple tasks, so why bother?

The solution probably lies within the IT business. With who I am as a person and what I’ve always loved doing, I should most likely be a developer if some sorts. I love problem solving and with my years as a blogger, using mainly WordPress as my platform I have developed a huge curiosity for code and development. Unfortunately, due to my Fibromyalgia and restless personality I haven’t been able really to do something about this venture that I’m finally gonna start.

I got accepted into college and if I finish I’ll become a system developer, specializing in Java development. I’ll also get a bachelors degree in computer science.

With this new and awaited start in my life, it is also the perfect time for some other changes. For starters, I am planning to kick start my diet into a WFPB diet that is as vegan, fiber rich and nutritious as possible. With my current health status – I probably have no other choice than eating healthier because I have no idea how I’ll get the strength to study if I do not take care of my health as well.

When school starts I’d be hoping I’d use a MacBook for my studies, but I can’t afford one. Until I can or some other miracle happens I’ll have to make due with our old laptop pc instead. As of writing this, I started writing this post on the laptop but it was so slow and laggy that my domestic partner had to reinstall windows on it and it still keeps bugging out on us. Something is deeply wrong with that laptop and we don’t know why. It is a similar problem that occurred with my desktop pc, but my BF has never had this issue with either the laptop or his own desktop so that makes it all a bit more weird. He finally managed to reinstall Windows on it, but I do not like Windows any longer.

After I’ve used a Mac mini since like April or May of 2018, going back to windows just feels so wrong. I miss the seamless experience that occurs between apple products but hopefully everything will be fine when school starts in a few weeks. Windows is cluttered, messy and it is clearly spying software or something.

I got office 365 with being a student again and I’ve installed it on the Mac mini. On windows, I got a suspicious question if I wanted to let my school change stuff in my computer?! Fortunately I could say hell no to that, but still? WTF?! That’s not cool on a personal computer. Fine if it was owned by the school but we bought it 3 or 4 years ago. This occured before the reinstall of Windows. I’m not sure how much I’ll be needing office 365, so I’ll wait and see until I’ll install it again on the laptop.

Also, on our laptop, it’s been a huge hassle with typing, getting languages to work properly and I miss Safari as my web browser. I’ve installed Firefox on the laptop now, but I miss Safari anyways. It’s not a perfect browser, but this laptop fucking sucks! Or maybe it’s just Windows that i dislike?! I’m writing on it again and I keep touching the touch bar, which makes the cursor move and it gets my words all messed up. I am gonna hate this! Not that I’ve tried using a Macbook ever, but it might be a whole lot better in many ways. With MacOS I at least know where to find everything…

I’m also doing my best to try a new thing, and that new thing has to do with iOS. I’ve been having trouble with Google Photos not uploading photos in the background. According to several sources it is due to iOS being “locked in” and not allowing this, but according to others, it’s been considered a bug. I don’t know what to say, because sometimes it does uploads everything without me having to have the app open in the background and sometimes it does not upload a single thing for weeks – until I manually open the app. I don’t know what to think, but after some googling I’ve decided to do some other thing that many recommends. That thing is to leave apps open in the background and not close them after use.

It’s a bit difficult of a habit to learn, since I’ve done this like always on Android and ever since I got my iPhone SE, but I’m trying my hardest now. If I can change this behavior and let apps be left open in the background, it would make many things a lot easier for me. However, after a little bit of testing it did not help at all with Google Photos. However, the photos I took were uploaded to iCloud and to my Mac mini seconds after I’ve taken them, so the problem remains. For now it makes me want to use Google photos even less, because I’m sick and tired of stuff not working properly! It can be a “good” backup, but nothing else, at least when we’re talking iOS vs Google.

After being an iPhone user with a physical home button for mainly all interactions, I’ve still not gotten used to using a home button. It feels weird, but I LOVE, Touch ID. With this new behavior I’m actually using the home button less, so that’s good. So, what’s the reason to letting apps be left open in the background? Well, that’s because iOS closes apps anyways after like 10 minutes and it uses less RAM if they’re left in the background. They say that if you take a picture with Google Photos in the background, it will wake up the app, but apparently not, but I’ll do some more testing…

I’ve also activated Apple Photos to store my photos and videos in iCloud. I still have like 4 GB left until I have to start paying for the service and I’ve noticed that more than 90% of my photos and videos stored in Google Photos are test videos or random, useless photos anyways so if I were to switch fully to Apple Photos instead, I’d be more careful with photos and videos I’d take. The reason I’m thinking of switching to Apple Photos is because it seems to be a more reliable service with faster uploads between devices, even if I do not use the storage option. Even if I’d start using Apple photos I can still continue to use Google photos anyway because it would be a good backup.

I actually tried to download my whole photo library I have on Google Photos, and I have 50 GB of stuff since like 2011 or something. Some of those photos were taken long before that, but I’m counting since I started using Picasa and then Google photos. If I’d go over to Apple Photos I’d probably take more “quality” photos than just random crap just because I can.

Ok, to sum it up – I have definitively noticed that I love being an Apple user and the Eco system is worth it all, even though it’s expensive as shit. I am starting to change as a person as well, because I am so sick of things never changing for the better. With me being an upcoming student again, I am hoping to change a whole lot more than just prefer being an Apple user. If I succeed, I’ll be a highly paid system/software developer, a WFPB vegan who’s lost 20+ lbs and regained her health and hopefully with a better hold on life than I have right now. I hope to change my behavior as well and learn to read books, not to get angry all the time because I don’t know the solution to things and most of all – I hope this all ends with me having a Great Dane by my side. As well as plenty more Apple products to boot 😂

What are your hopes for your future? Let me know in a comment below. Thanks!

Great… The YouTube shooter is a female vegan. Now what?

This thing is going viral as of now, and for like the first time ever I’m actually writing (or blogging) about news, instead of being years or months behind a big news event. This post is primarily about the YouTube shooting that happened yesterday in California, but maybe also about the recent news regarding Facebook’s scandal that also happened.

The shooter is a woman called Nasim Aghdam who recently gotten fed up with the new YouTube’s new policies and problems with demonetizing videos. I have never seen her videos before, as far as I can remember, but it’s a sad story in many ways.

On her channels, she made videos about veganism, animal rights etc. That is great, but in this case, it sucks that she was vegan. That’s because people tend to categorize people in a bad way when something like this happens. It’s like if a killer turns out to have autism, and then society goes nuts and gets scared of everybody on the autism spectrum, even though practically all of them are as “normal” as you are. It all goes away eventually, but it’s sad and even more horrible when people and society in general see an action like this as a “vegan and crazy” attack on YouTube instead of ONE individual’s opinions and actions. I, myself do my very best not to put people in groups like that, and I believe that I see individuals more than groups of people or culture. If a person does something, towards me or others that’s generally considered a bad thing, like rape, murder, burning somebody’s house down etc, I do not get pissed at “terrorists”, vegans or whomever the group is considered to be. I look at the individual’s action and nowhere else. However, I always speculate in the cause of the actions that took place.

It is not fair for anybody on YouTube to have their videos de-monetized. It is not right for anybody to get raped, robbed or killed etc. But I do not blame YouTubers or vegans for this action. Nasim did this (as far as we know) and it is her action alone and reasoning that did this. Could it have been prevented? Sure. YouTube has been acting weird lately for many YouTubers out there and that’s just not cool. Just like Facebook with their latest data-scraping scandal or whatever I should call it.

However I firmly believe that murder is never the answer.

Society will change no matter what, even though it might take a while longer sometimes with the more important and better things. Like a universal basic income (or  maybe even a world without money?) or a world filled with vegans, where every living creature will live a healthier life with less worry over other things. That would be lovely. It’s sad that she had to die and shoot others in order to spread her opinions…

Ok, shall we talk about Facebook, then?

First of all I am not surprised. I’ve basically known from the beginning that Facebook has serious issues with privacy for their users. Still, I choose to continue using it. The main reason for that is that life as I know it would be really frickin’ boring without it. Here’s the history:

I, personally have also chosen to live my adult life very far away from my roots. I was born in Stockholm, Sweden. My parents are from a place called Härjedalen, which is even further north in this cold country. I now live in Malmö, but I’ve chosen to live in the southern parts of Sweden since 2001. Especially in Skåne, which is the most southern part. I have a huge network of family and friends that has spread throughout the country because of this and no matter what, I’d never move back to Stockholm. Not even if I got a million dollars. I’d never do it willingly. I moved away from there because of mainly two things. The attitude of the people living there and the weather. Many people in Stockholm have a view of life that really differs from mine. It’s like they really do not accept anybody who does not have an iPhone or is generally a bit different from themselves. But I’m also exaggerating a bit here. I love my family and friends I have over there, but generally I feel like the attitude thing is real. I do not like that.

There is also a hidden reason for why I left, and that’s the accent that is spoken there. I do not like it, and I used to speak like that as well, but as I kept growing up I kept feeling that I feel more like a person with a different accent than the one in Stockholm. I choose therefore to talk with a southern Swedish accent instead of the one I was born with. I speak skånska. For people that speak English, I sound like a french person or something like that, because there are a lot of similarities with that language, and the accent itself is very inspired of the french. It is also very related to the Danish language, but not as much as one would think. If you understand Swedish, you can read more about it here.

Ok, going back to Facebook then. I actually deleted my FB account in 2011, when Google+ arrived. I basically instantly felt a loss with all the friends and family that did not choose to use G+ instead of Facebook, which was basically everybody on my friends list. I eventually went back and I have been using FB daily since then. As of now, and this has been true for like 3 years now, Facebook is actually a lot more fun that G+. Google Plus is dying and it is only a matter of time before Google will let that place go. It has a lot of users, sure, but the interaction is basically non existent for many users now. It is so boring and I have sort of given up on the place. I’ve chosen to only post blog posts there and nothing else, because no matter what I post, people do not care. I could basically stop using G+ and nobody would miss me  or notice I’m gone, and that’s fine. But I’ll keep using it until Google calls it quits and that’s that.

Social media is a must for me. It’s so much fun, even though it generates very little traffic to my blogs and YouTube channels. I have also basically stopped using Instagram as well. I post a picture there from time to time, but I’ve stopped going in there to look at my feed. That’s because during the fall of 2017, everything sort of became a bit too much and I decided that at least one of the social media accounts had to be “let go” or something like that. Instagram was the one, but I basically treat G+ the same as well. It’s enough to visit G+ like once every other day, because it takes that long to let the feed become useful enough to read. I’ve basically also stopped giving plus’s to people’s posts. I do not get the interaction back anyways, so why bother? I know that I’m boring on G+, so I have it coming, but many people say the same as me. Therefore a lot of people on G+ have started adding each other on Facebook instead. It’s pretty funny. I also use Facebook a lot at work. Their groups are great, and I personally manage 4 FB pages for my blogs and websites. I also used to manage many of the work’s FB pages as well, but I do not do that any longer.

Ok, so I won’t stop using Facebook and I will not get angry at fellow YouTubers for being disappointed at YouTube for demonetizing their videos, but I will not accept murder and reckless shootings.

What about you?

More about vegan terminology…

After my post I wrote about vegan terminology I felt that even though I said a lot, I have even more to say about it. First of all, is it really that important to use the terminology for everything? I mean, if you’re a meat eater, you generally do not have a term for it. You just eat food and probably do not care about where it comes from, if you eat an animal like a cow or a pig or that your shampoo has been tested on animals as well. I mean – who cares, right? The same thing should also apply if you’re vegetarian in some shape or form. As long as you eat a certain vegan-ish way that should mean that everything is fine, right?

Life was certainly a lot easier back then when I knew nothing about my food. I just ate it and felt as good as I possibly could, even though I’ve been sort of sick my whole life fro fibromyalgia, IBS and the like. I did not think about the consequences that my food choice made on the planet or my health. It was just food. Today it is so different and I’m not perfect, but today I think it is really important to use words correctly in order to not mislead or confuse people. Especially since so many people still do not care about what they eat and how it affects health, animals and our planet. That is why terminology is important to me, and why the term for vegan(ism) has to change.

What I have learned now, going back since like 2012 when I first got to know a vegan personally and watched documentaries like forks over knives has really changed my life. I have learned that us humans are somewhere between herbivores and frugivores, that animal agriculture is the leading cause alone to climate change. I’ve also learned that it is possible to reverse a lot of diseases and prevent basically every single one of them as well by eating a healthy vegan diet. That is why I feel that the correct information regarding all of this needs to get out there, even though I am not yet a vegan by its terminology. Like you’ve probably read – I’m vegetarian that consumes eggs, dairy and sometimes honey. And I’m lazy and eat a lot of processed crap! But I’m striving towards being vegan someday and I hope it will be possible for me to be a vegan within 5 years or so. By the end of 2018 I at least hope I’ll have the habit of being a somewhat semi-vegan eating primarily WFPB for health reasons, but if I’m being realistic that will only work for weeks or maybe a few months at the time since I’m so lazy and have like zero energy most days. But I’m trying my best!

Anyways, on with the post. What I wanted to write about today is more about the whole thing of not being vegan enough. Like it is against the law to call yourself vegan if you do not do it for the animals. I AM SO SICK OF THAT!!! Like I mentioned in my earlier post, I base being vegan on what you eat, regardless if you eat WFPB or vegan junk food or perhaps a mix of both. YOU ARE VEGAN IF YOU EAT VEGAN FOOD!

The main reason I wanted to say something more about this whole thing that’s going on is because it feels like if you are only (and I mean only) vegan for the animals, that would mean that lab grown meat is your ultimate goal. Because then you could eat meat without worrying about the animals. Since it’s coming from real animal flesh and muscles and bones, but no animals had been killed or hurt in the process – you’d all go back to eating meat when there is a final product out there, right? Because – who cares when no animals are killed or hurt, right? Meat is vegan if no animals were hurt or killed for it, right? Even though meat is defined as an animal product? It has to be vegan if no animals were hurt or killed in the process, right? It is only vegan if you think about the animals, right? And if you are vegan for the animals you do not think about your own health, because there is no need to, right? If you are vegan, you cannot possibly also eat healthy foods as well, because then you’d be plant based and never considered being vegan, right?

I think that is such wrongness to use the word vegan for. It makes me feel like you think of cows like walking carrots with feelings. Don’t get me wrong, I have heard people say this, and regard animals as plants, when the food (or animal) itself is not being anywhere vegetarian. An animal is defined as an animal and plants are defined as plants. At least I know that much. You can combine the two and eat a somewhat omnivorous diet, but as being a vegetarian, still consuming eggs and dairy it is important to know that the animal products are still animal products. They complement the plant foods you’re eating. The egg is not a vegetarian product, nor is the dairy. By saying that, it’s totally fine to eat like an omelette if you’re vegetarian, but that does not mean you’re eating plants by just consuming the omelette. See what I mean?

People for real counts eggs as being a fruit or something, fish and chickens for beings without emotions and dairy as a magical formula that just pours out of the cows for no reason that we as humans also must consume to help save the cows. All vegetarian, of course if you’d consider yourself being one. Like, WTF?!

Ok, you might think I’m overreacting here and I wish I was, but I’ve thought about this for a while now and I’m only getting more angry over the whole thing. The video linked above to GojiMan on YouTube enhanced these feelings for me even more. He says in the video that it’s great to be vegan for the animals (and I agree), but he ultimately concludes (or something) that all vegans who do it for the animals only eat junk food. That cannot possibly be right? I think talking about veganism in that matter only makes the whole thing about “you’re not vegan enough” crap that’s spreading like wildfire on YouTube, especially, a whole lot worse.

Let’s get one thing straight, though… I know there are so called junk food vegans out there and that is totally fine. I also am well aware about the Plant Based movement as well, but to automatically suggest or claim that vegans can only call themselves vegan if they ONLY do it for the animals is so sickening and it is not helping the vegan movement at all. Of course it is really important to think about the animals when you’re discussing or talking about veganism or vegetarianism. It matters! Their lives matters! But our health matters as well and so does the planet’s health. So it is important to go vegan for all reasons and to relax and accept all vegans for their reasons to go vegan. As long as they eat vegan food, everything should be fine but apparently it is not. Like WTF?! I also think it’s fine (like I’m trying to do) to take your time to get rid and switch the animal products in your home in the time and manners that suit you. Like switching to vegan/cruelty-free make-up products and shampoo and next time you need to buy a new sofa, you do not buy a leather one. Just because you go vegan (for whatever reason)doesn’t mean you have to change everything over night. It can be a process over time. And that’s fine! The most important thing is to start with what you’re eating and eat vegan defined foods.

As another example, I watched this video yesterday or something and I think it’s like pure harassment that people who are vegans (for the animals, of course 😉 ) hate her and say that she can’t call herself vegan because she’s doing it for other reasons than the animals? I mean, WTF?! Ok, in the video she says that she sometimes eat fish, like on Christmas eve or something and a few other days of the year. Otherwise she eats vegan. I’d personally call her a semi-vegan and I understand her reasons for making it easy when she orders stuff in restaurants to say she’s vegan, because she primarily eats like that 99% of the year. At least that’s how I interpreted her. I might be wrong. What is wrong is other vegans hating on her because she does not do it for the animals! It is so crazy. She says herself in the video that nobody cared when she ate meat, but when she’s vegan – but not for the animals, then there is war!

I don’t know… it is all so silly. I wish that things will go back to normal and being vegan – no matter for what reasons is ok, and that it is okay as well to be a junk food vegan or being a healthy WFPB eater. Thinking that the vegan word does not only have to mean it’s all about the animals will do a whole lot more for the vegan movement I think in the long run. Being a vegan ultimately starts with your diet!

What about you?

Going cruelty-free, can really f*ck you up…

About a week ago, I thought I’d surely go bald and it has felt like my head has been on fire off and on since then. The reason? Well, I washed my hair with undiluted Dr. Bronner Castile Soap and that was a pure nightmare or something. The good news is that I did not go bald and everything is now better, but this has really freaked me out!

Why I want to go cruelty-free.

Well, that’s pretty simple. For the animals and the planet. Since going vegetarian I have slowly trying to eat better and go more “vegan” or something like that. I fail most of the time, pretty miserably, but I try. What I mean by trying is that I actively try to eat mainly vegan and mostly Whole Foods which are Plant Based. WFPB for short, just so you know. I really want to maximize my fiber intake and lose the weight without having to do vigorous activity. Because exercising is so boring!  I proved that it can happen a few weeks during the summer of 2017, so I know that eating a lot of fiber helps with weight loss. But this part is also about the cruelty-free part. I went vegetarian primarily for health reasons and for weight loss. That doesn’t mean, however that I do not know about the horrors that occurs in the animal agriculture business of things. But I do this anyways primarily for health reasons, and by not being officially vegan and also not being a WFPB vegan, you can expect that I am not losing weight since being just a vegetarian is too easy. There’s milk and eggs in everything and me and the “hubby” (aka the BF) loves all the packaged, processed stuff so that is why we are not losing weight and why it, for me may seem pointless to do this mainly for health reasons. But I’ll get there eventually. I have to, I mean… I hate being overweight! And I really dislike to exercise because of various reasons. Mostly due to the Swedish crappy weather… But it is still so boring!

I have now been a vegetarian for over a year and I love it. It works wonderfully. But now I feel like I’m ready to do more. Both for the environment, for my personal health and for the animals. That is why I’m slowly starting to eat more WFPB stuff and also why I’m curious about going cruelty-free as well. I have washed my hair on and off for over a year with a vegan product called Malibu C  with their Undo-goo shampoo and Illumin8 conditioner.I love the smell of them, but the shampoo tends to create residue and buildup in my hair after a while. The conditioner and the shampoo are amazing, however! Therefor, I have temporarily gone back to only using Head & Shoulder’s shampoo for dandruff. It works wonders and I love it, but the animal aspects of it and all of the gunk that’s being poured out into the ocean etc. due to me washing my hair with it is starting to get to me. That’s why I’d like to find something better. Preferably something that both me and my BF could use, because I love sharing the same shampoo with him. It saves space and money in the shower, you know 😛 .

The horrible experience with Dr. Bronner’s Soap…

The main reason why I started out with Dr Bronner, is mainly due to my family. My brother and sister have been health nuts for years, especially due to the environmental parts of it all. They use as little processed stuff as possible in their diet as well as in their homes. They have been using Dr Bronner for years and I’ve gotten curious about the products as well, so I wanted to try it out for myself. I found an online apothecary that sells Dr Bronner’s stuff and I was also able to buy small traveling packs as well. This is what I ordered. After a few days it got delivered and I believe I washed my hair with it on Saturday. At first I followed the instructions and took ½ a tablespoon undiluted and washed my hair with it. It did barely lather and it felt generally weird to wash my hair with it. I did not, however follow up with their recommended rinse, because I did not know you needed to! My hair felt worse than it used to way back when I tried to do a “no ‘poo” thing for my hair. It felt dirty, greasy and it stood out by itself when I brushed it. The day after it felt like crap and I had to wash it again. This time I made the worst mistake ever! This time I probably took 3 tablespoons worth of the stuff and then it finally lathered and felt like normal shampoo. I was relieved then that it worked, but when I washed it out… Oh, My Frickin’ God! My hair turned into a fatty, greasy lump of I have no idea what! It was completely unmanageable! I was horrified! I thought that after this, my BF is gonna have to shave it all off, because this is not happening! I immediately washed my hair with some of the normal shampoo and I followed up with some Malibu C conditioner just to be safe. Then my hair felt like normal, but afterwards… Then the real nightmare started. The following morning I woke up with a feeling that my head was feeling extremely warm. It was like a localized fever on my scalp. I was not red, however and have not been since, but it felt really warm. Ever since then I had to wash my hair multiple times, both with water and with just regular shampoo. I’ve also had to splash some water on my head to cool it down a little. I think the feeling started to go away on Thursday or something, but it has been going on and off sometimes since then as well. And I thankfully still have all of my hair and it is still shiny as usual! I also have not lost any more hair than usual, so everything is fine. I just regret this whole experience!

The conclusion.

I will never, ever use Dr Bronner to wash my hair again and I am warning you to not do it either. At least not how I did it. Dilute it! Use the acidic rinse afterwards that they recommend or something… But what about other cruelty-free products? I’d really like to start using that stuff, but I am so afraid of doing so! This event has scared the shits out of me or something, so for now I’ve gone back to using crappier products that tests on animals and pollutes our planet. I am to scared to try anything that’s remotely better. In general, however I am hoping to one day have switched all of my hygiene products to vegan, cruelty-free options. Everything from shampoo to toothpaste to my daily lip balm. But as of now – I’m to scared to try it.

What are your experience with Dr Bronner and other cruelty-free products. Let me know in the comments below!